Short Introduction, Day 0. "Sissy Beginnings and High Hopes"

Short introduction, I don't have much time.
But I promised myself I'll do this now.
I am a 19 year old male.
I primarily a practicing Buddhist and a student of religion, occultism, philosophy, mystical and esoteric knowledge (from Hermeticism to Tantra)
Discovered NoFap 1 year ago.
My max has always been 30 days.
Those periods have always been the absolute best of my life.
Before NoFap I was addicted to sissy, trap and trans porn. Still am.
Went further than I'm comfortable to admit in public with this degeneracy and I'm an unusually honest person.
I need to quit this.
It is interfering with my social, educational and sexual life.
I am unable to continue my meditational practice because of it.
I joined this forum because I realised it is impossible for me to do this alone. Or at the very least, it would take a much longer time, time I do not want to waste.
I will update weekly until the 90 Days Mark.
I will also update after reaching each benchmark as described here on the SPAM REMOVED - REPORT TO MODERATION blog
and here: /forum/index.php?threads/90-day-timeline-of-withdrawal-symptons.142561/
I'm new so can't post links yet.
I am writing after a 4 day sissy/ trans porn binge combined with...unorthodox forms of masturbation.
Anyway.
My aim is to complete 90 Days of Hard-mode. I intend to add Monk Mode elements progressively (cold showers, restarting the long meditation sessions, working out, running, etc.).
Relapse is not an opinion. I have the certainty that it will all go smoothly.
Yup, it's a surety now!
Especially now that I must face you guys if I fail. I hate to disappoint and not keep my promise.
Wish me luck!
See you in around 24 hours for Day 1.

 

Thank you for the warm welcome!
I started a journal, will update it every other day as I meet each little benchmark, check it out .
All I want is for those days to pass so I can speak from a position of self-knowledge and self-control, begin helping others by leading as an example. My will is strong and with a community like this one I'm certain I won't fail. And why would I fail? Why would any of us fail? NoFap should be the very foundation of our journey towards self-development, self-improvement and for the ones who are capable, self-transcendence. It's a mere first baby step. We cannot get stuck with this, we simply do not have the time. I repeat: we do not have the time.

By the time we reach our 20th year we will be left with only three quarters, at the very maximum, out of our functional physical life (80 years). Only a half if we desire full physical function (60 years). Two or three more segments of time, equal to the amount we've already spent. Life is too short for us to spend more than 90 days of our life for a final and eternal reboot. We are still young. The faster we become aware of the morality of our physical body, the better it is and the more blessed we should consider ourselves. I see this is a new Day Zero for you. Make this your last day zero, @theprocedure. No more new beginnings. This is the last one.

I am 2 days ahead of you. If this gap wideness even more in my favour, know that I will be a richer, even better time investor than you. You on the other hand, will have more wasted and less time left for proper investment. Start being stingy with your time, this ain't something you can save in the bank for later. What we've been doing is paying the Porn Industry with our own precious time and thus giving away our most precious resource, tiny pieces of our very identity and soul, in exchange of illusions and lies. Enough of this We do not have the leisure to engage in this degeneracy any longer.
I am in the front now and there is nothing you can do emoji_laughing about it. But you can be right behind me. If I die first (relapse is NOT a possibility), you'll be able to overtake my streak in just two days, if you keep at it like me, that is.

Don't forget this. I sure as hell won't.