Shorter streaks lacking motivation

Don't track the "streak," track the process. The little counter in my signature has my current streak, but I have a system on paper where I track everything. Relapses, edging, peeking. My first year here I was like everyone, set counter, wait a few days, relapse, binge, reset counter, repeat. Since I started tracking everything, my binging is gone. I've only had 6 PMO sessions in the last 90 days. While I'm not "cured" by any stretch of the imagination, and if I "peek" at my internet model obsession I'll relapse like its cool, I now have 100% confidence that I can get though this.

 

Excellent!

 

Yeah I had the same, there are layers and levels of triggers. When I was feeling good about my life, relationship, job prospects, staying clean was pretty easy. But when things started looking ore bleak the relapses started dog piling me and I seemed unable to crawl out from under...

Not entirely but mostly. Emotions are simply your enemy when trying to get out of addiction. And most guys are just riding that emotional rollercoaster in circles thinking they can figure out a way to just ride it going up...

I don't quite know how I did it. But earlier this year I just stopped caring how I felt, stopped caring about the relapses, and got just super practical about nailing this thing. I knew diet and exercise were related, i knew cold showers, journaling and meditation helped me somewhat, as well as hanging out on nofap forums and sharing and trying to help... and I just kept at 110% whether I PMO-ed or not, I still kept right at doing the things that helped as well as being really thorough about how and why I slipped up and trying to figure out a way to improve my chances. And after a couple moths of that I broke through the 30 day barrier and have been hanging on ever since.

I've never felt this close to being completely free ever.