Hmm...sounds like you're not really trying to overcome the sexual addiction. You're just putting it on hold for awhile so that you can feel like you deserve it again. That sounds much like the "Santa Semana" (holy week) festival they have in Spain every year: after one week of vegetarian food, no booze or alcohol of any kind, maybe even no women, then they have a riot of a week afterward to celebrate their successful "holy days." They end up more than making up for their brief respite from their indulgences! There's no point in doing the right thing some of the time. One needs to do it all of the time. It has been said that character is who we are when we think no one is looking. Keep your guard up! Don't even think about getting that fleshlight.