Should I count this as a relapse?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Dabbing Bigfoot, Feb 2, 2018.

  1. Dabbing Bigfoot

    Dabbing Bigfoot Fapstronaut

    I really don't want to but I think there is some area of debate. I did start watching porn today only to tear myself away and stop pmo. Does this count as edging? i did not get close to ejaculation at all, and to be honest I have never been able to tear myself away like this.
  2. Reverent

    Reverent Fapstronaut

    Isn't it ironic it's called MASTERbating yet we are slaves to it. And in a quest for true self-mastery we debate.

    If your goals are No PMO. Then "Yes" you looked at porn.

    Don't sugar coat it, our brains are quick to decieve us. They claw and scratch to keep the compulsions alive.

    I don't know what lead up to you deciding to look at Porn. But whatever boundary you crossed it was a failure.

    Now the good news. It was only a mild set back on your new reboot. You did an amazing thing by not taking it to regretful completion. That is remarkably good efforts in your desire to get better. Keep stringing more of those kind of stratagies together and it will be no surprise you meet the successes you seek.

    Don't beat yourself up for your mistakes, chalk them up as lessons and move forward with greater empowerment.

    "The strength is in you, BECOME."
  3. Dabbing Bigfoot

    Dabbing Bigfoot Fapstronaut

    Yes you are quite right. I need to be more truthful with myself. And after further reflection and reading this, I did decide this would be a strike. however, my brain yet again did decieve me, as I considered it ok to finish the deed, to VALIDATE the strike completely.

    I am not beating myself up though, because I have never been able to fight it as much as I have today. I'll just learn from the experience .
  4. LilD

    LilD Fapstronaut

    It's good what you won this fight today, but the best advice I can give to you is to avoid any fights altogether. When I fight, I lose, eventually. When I avoid fights, I win because I don't relapse. I know for sure I cannot somehow destroy my addiction, so in this war my enemy is immortal, and so the war is never ceasing. My best course of action is to run somewhere safe and hide there.

    As for the question of if it's a relapse or not, it's you who set the rules of your reboot. If your goals include not watching porn at all, even w/o masturbation, when indeed it is a relapse. I avoid all porn, and I would count this as a relapse.

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