Recently, I've started looking for some manga title that interested me. I began reading it knowing that it's 18+ (though it wouldn't mean anything porn every time, just gore etc.). I suddenly saw a page with something that in the past would mean porn to me and I closed it. I felt terrible, because after a while I realised that I wanted to see something like that, but it was almost as if I hadn't thought about that aim immediately when starting looking. I had cravings to continue, but I stopped. Simply stopped. I hadn't felt arousal, but I only felt terrible cravings for going on. However, I just couldn't. The thought of resetting my counter after so many days kept me from anything that would lead me to taking a conscious look at any porn.
However, I couldn't stop thinking whether I really should reset my counter and it was really blocking my mind. Yeah, the counter helps, but also can be a nuisance.
So, I haven't reset it. I saw a manga picture, I walked into a trap unconsciously set be myself, but I stopped immediately before going for more. If I had looked explicitly at the nude picture, I'd have reset. But as you can see, and most people would probably agree, my counter is happily going forward. I saw something, but I did not fall for it. Heck, in comparison with you, my mistake was worse, so don't even think about resetting that beautiful number
Still, I feel bad... and it's stupid since it was more like a victory.
