Hi If I were to tell my backstory, this thread would become a wall of text, and since I can't be bothered to write it out, and nobody would probably want to read that much, I'll try to be very brief about my situation. I am 27 years old and has PMO since age 14 when I discovered P through a friend who had obtained it elsewhere. Not a unique story by any means. I am lethargic, unmotivated, have anxiety, depression, all kinds of sexual dysfunctions, and I feel like a zombie. I am utterly disgusted with P at this point. What keeps me coming back to it is pure withdrawal. I get a tightness in the scrotum and a pressure that is relieved when I PMO. I also get restless and my mind races. This is relieved when I PMO. I feel like this completely controls me, after years of habit. The tightness and pressure, sometimes burning feeling is unbearable. The relief lasts a day, maybe two, then I am overcome with it again. I also feel soothed watching the P. It has become an escape for me. I have a history with drug and alcohol use but I have given those up completely. I guess this is my last source of getting dopamine hits, that's why it's so hard. And it's also the addiction that was established first. I set up a counter. My first goal is to make it a week. I have been able to reduce my PMO habit to every other day. Even then I feel the lethargy get so much worse after "indulging". I will come back here and try to write updates. Right now I just needed some kind of accountability to motivate me to reach my first goal, and to make it harder to fall into temptation. I have also installed K9 to filter away adult content. Nice to meet you all and I wish you all the best of success, whatever your goals are.