Sissy addiction.. again

Man, there is no such thing as sexual orientation towards trans people. That just doesn’t exist in the nature. You confused your brain, you have to stop masturbation and watching porn for at least a year. Give yourself a break, don’t date, don’t think about women and men as sexual objects. Feel asexual for a little. I had similar urges, but now I am laughing at them. And I am only 2 months into this with full blown PIED flatlines etc.

 

Read my post, it’s very similar to yours. In my case I ended up being exclusively attracted to being a woman in a relationship, or being a bottom gay men. Without any sexual attraction to other men, of course. As soon as I started NoFap my cravings towards this BS increased (aka my brain trying to trick me into watching porn again). Then it stopped. Now I am disgusted by the idea of sex with men.

You cannot be attracted to trans people, that’s fetish, not attraction. Trans people are transitioning to become real thing, man who wants to be female, changes his genitalia. Being open minded and attracted to trans people as much as other women is not a bad thing. But thinking about FINDING exclusively trans woman is a bad thing and is compulsive behaviour.
But if I were you, I would do a full reboot, stop watching porn completely, stop masturbation and dating attempts for a year at least.

Do you have PIED, have you had sex with women previously? How long have you been on NoFap?

 

Also, the guy who is writing this isn’t you. It’s your addiction trying to trick you into finding answer that this is your sexual orientation and you are sissy or whatever you’re into, so you can continue watching porn, having perverted sex and getting dopamine. As soon as somebody writes something like:
“That’s your sexual orientation, just accept it. NoFap doesn’t change sexual orientation.” You will feel aroused, relieved and will go on with your pathetic life. You have to beat this. Remember, your real desire is when you have long term plans to settle down and have a girl.

 

I still struggle with PIED, I still have weak erections, but further I go, more powerful and strong I feel as a man. I feel like a completely different person. I am also very intellectual and spiritual and over analyzing things in my life made it only worse, now I became simpler and have less anxieties. I hope one day you will wake up and just laugh or feel disgusted at your previous fetishes.

And please, rule for life, never accept things that you truly do not find attractive (or when you are sober). You don't have to be super macho in order to feel like a man. You just need to stop browsing hook-up websites, watching porn and thinking about dating for at least a year. Dedicate that time to earn more money, start going to the gym. Use that time to become the best man you can possibly become. Time will heal your fetishes and help you forget your past sexual experiences.

 

Yes, you are aroused, because you haven't done reboot.

3 weeks is really nothing. 90 days without masturbation, porn and any thoughts is the first step in the right direction. You will feel a little better and have less of those thoughts, but everybody is different. Most likely, you will need at least a year of no PMO, no masturbation and no thoughts to fully recover from this. There was a video of a guy trying to learn how to ride a reverse bike. He needed 8 months to do that. I am 2 months in, and I have very little progress, my libido is almost 0, but I notice small improvements, like I concentrate attention on females breasts and stuff. I feel like a little kid just discovering my sexuality.

First of all, you are not alone. Unlike many NoFappers here I have pretty successful life and women are attracted to me. The problem is in my sexual dysfunction.

And don't forget - once you start doing NoFap, No PMO - you are changing your life completely. That means that you will never go back to your old ways, you will have orgasms only with real women and wire yourself to real women. It's like a heroine addiction, you can't have it a little bit here, and a little bit there. If you commit yourself to escape this thing - you never touch it again.

 

I think, whatever you are exposed to that is what you will gravitate towards. The more you expose yourself to other things related to manhood, masculinity and stuff will push you towards the other side in return, smoothly. Sometimes it's good to have a mentor, even if it is only on youtube, a person you look up to and admire for what they are and do, a person embodying the traits you'd like to inherit.

The definition of masculinity itself is rather vague, too. I recommend the book The Way of Men by Jack Donovan, it's straight forward and cuts to the point.

Props to @MichaelDracula , reading your comments I see this is real support.

Best to you

 

Don't forget, that once you start NoFap those cravings will increase. First couple of weeks can be easy, but then you will get that wave of cravings towards your favorite porn. You will have good and bad days. When you pass that mark, you will feel a lot better. I feel a lot better now, and have 0 desire towards sissy, trans, gay and any type of porn at all. But think about women all the time.

No, you can't be both at the same time. There will always be one side that will be stronger, and it will make you lose interest in the other side. That's why heroine and crack addicts, never smoke marijuana. It doesn't do anything for them.

You have to ask yourself the question why you had sex with trans in the first place? Have you met this "girl" in real life and then she told you she is trans and you accepted it and had sex, because you liked her? Or you found her online searching for trans person to have sex? I think I know the answer and it's of course compulsive behavior.
In which way you had sex? Were you in your head while doing it? You have to analyze that situation and give honest answers to yourself. Having sex with trans people, animals, aliens or whatever and seeking that particular type of sex is compulsive behavior, which leads to more dopamine release than regular sex. Now, healthy guy without addiction can have sex with trans, and it will be the same as sex with girl, maybe even worse. But he will sacrifice it because he likes this person. But he will not get more dopamine from that relationship, because he will see her as a woman. You will see her only as a new dopamine hit, and as soon as you develop tolerance you will have your sexual dysfunction again.

 

I totally get what you mean by it coming in waves. I'm struggling with the same addiction. Femdom/Sissy stuff is really hard to quit, and it destroys your self image.

I've been so close so many times the last couple of weeks but I'm still hanging in there somehow. It's possible!

 

Hi man, I am also facing kind of same situation, I lost myself, I don't kw who I am truly anymore, in youall did my teen life I never excersised my masculinty, all my time spent with pmo, by the way I am 26 now, as there is no evidence of being a man, my brain tricking my self as bottom, coz of this I stopped talking to girls as the feeling of not being man enough, I kw it is not true bcoz when ever I think about it, I get very depressed, and I hav this deep desire to become man again. So do you got out of it did you recovered??

 

Hii man I also having same issues can we talk about it, coz it ruining my life, and I would really appreciate you help

 

I think it would be enough to stop reading after you mentioned that you were sexually assaulted by your brother.

You went through a sexual trauma. That surely left mark on you. Maybe seek psychological help?