Sissy,cuckold

Hello, I must say that I do not speak English. All the written text was translated into a google translator. I'm 24 years old and I'm still a virgin (I know, it sounds a little funny even: 24 year old virgin). My story is this: I started watching porn in 13 year . It was an easy porn (video cassettes). In time I got acquainted with the Internet and started watching porn videos. Like all the guys I masturbated to classic porn! There were also cases when I watched porn with trances, incest and other genres, but it's all for a short time masturbated and forgotten) .1,5 years ago I'm nat went to sissy porn and started jerking off on this genre. At first this all seemed to me just fun. Then under the influence of strong stress I was very interested in this genre that I masturbated 7-8 times a day. And I got to the point where I started stuffing in my anus stuff resembling dildo and masturbate. I did not like it! Then I started to paint my face, the same did not really like it! It seems to be exciting, but then what? Nothing! Then this shit started to bother me in real life. There were thoughts on the street that I was a cheap slut! And it scared me! I decided to quit masturbation! And did not think about sissy porn! So I lasted 13 days! I had a strong riser and I looked at porn (classic sex)! And so I jerked for a while and came across a cuckold genre. I masturbated for a couple of months. I tried to quit a couple of times! There were persuasive, anxious, I went back to porn! began to masturbate again on sissy porn. The internet was not there and I started to fantasize that I'm a whore. And like my brain says: "Guy, why do you need this?" But my animal part continues to get excited! Recently I looked at a classic porn and masturbated and I very much I was happy, because I thought my men's part was but I still have masculinity! In real life, I do not have sexual arousal for men, but on the contrary, I'm attracted to women, I want to love and be happy! I do not want to be a stupid whore in real life! I have questions : If I refuse the porn, will the excitement go sissy? Or are these changes forever? Are there any specific steps to getting rid of this shit?

 

Man, I do not know where to click, where to go. Your profile is closed, I can not access your journal. Tell me what actions to take to quit porn. I know this is a long process. I have not done this for 2 days already(no fapping). I started breaking, sleep is bad. Tell me what to do?