Hello fellow NoFappers. I was raised in a great household with a loving family. However, not everything was perfect. For example, I did not receive a lot of emotional attention and validation from my father, which I so desperately sought. Also, he was very emotionally authoritarian so my voice was rarely heard. This is just a simple little explanation. It's much more complicated and would take a long time to explain. Anyways, I was exposed to internet porn at a very young age and I found my drug. As you can see from the title of this thread, regular porn was just the beginning. I found my tastes escalating into sissy hypno, gay, humilation, and raceplay porn. I've even gone as far as acting these out in real life. Each time, ending with that feeling of shame and regret. I've done all this as a way to medicate myself and to receive the love I had sought out and didn't receive as a kid. I've struggled on and off with NoFap. My biggest streak was 4 months or so. But that was awhile go. I realized I really need to buy in. So I will begin posting on these forums, taking notes on posts and books relating to NoFap, and truly make this a lifestyle. I have also began reading "Letting Go" and am simultaneously doing the "Transformation Mastery" program to help. If you resonate with any of my post, please feel free to contact me and let's get it going. We are not alone. I am done with my addiction, and here is my introduction.