Sissy Harem

Porn Killer

Fapstronaut
(Possible trigger warning)

First off, I’m not gay, but through porn escalation I had gotten hook on sissy porn (not being a sissy, being with one).

Secondly, SCREW MY SUBCONSCIOUS BRAIN.

While awake I can keep my mind occupied. But while I sleep it runs loose.
The past few nights I’ve been having dreams that I was with a harem of sissies. A freak harem. Like,what the heck brain?!?
Then when I wake up it’s constantly on my mind and my nether regions become constantly hungry.
I know if I can resist it will go away, but crap it’s hard.

Anyone else struggling from your stupid subconscious?
 
I often have some weird, creepy, or nasty dreams. I don't think there's anything I can do about it, I just don't focus on it.
 
I've always had weird dreams. But when I was looking at alot of this particular type of P, I did have a couple very unsettling ones which I could only really trace back to what I'd been watching. The creepy part thought was at seemed like a delayed affect, like some trigger went off in my dream state, like a week after I'd been exposed to it.

Freaked me the hell out and had me swear it off for good after that. (To be honest I did stray back into it a couple times since, so have made a few missteps, but at the very least I definitely take the threat alot more seriously now.)

I wonder if the more shocking/taboo a fetish is, if it may have more of this kind of power to affect the mind. Perhaps anything perceived as very "other" to your normal vanilla interests is more challenging for the mind to accept, so it pops up in the subconscious later. Just speculation on my part.
 
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I'm more into the other part: being a sissy/TV/whatever. I don't think there is much of a difference?
But all sorts of stuff can trigger my thoughts. Like for instance someone wearing glasses and I think about wearing glasses myself and that automatically catapults me in a female role.

@chiyu: I'm also somehow expieriencing some shocking stuff very interesting ...
But this is also stated in "your brain on porn", that shocking increases dopamine level or so.
 
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