Sissy Porn/Crossdressing/Online Exhibitionism Need Help

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  1. jack.green

    jack.green New Fapstronaut

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    I don't know how to stop myself. I started watching porn when I was only 13 and by the time I was 18, I was posting pictures of myself on the internet. I thought I was growing out of it, but when I quit drinking and drugs 5 years ago it took a dark turn. I was going through a lonely phase of my life and was exposed to sissy-porn and got really into sissy and shemale porn videos. I started to fall for all of the bs sissy stuff (I'm a woman on the inside, I want to only have sex with men, etc.) and started dressing fem and posting pictures of myself on the internet. A few years later I would meet up with another "sissy". That was the only time, but in recent years, I keep spending hundreds of dollars on clothes and sex toys only to throw it all away in moments of clarity. I no longer try to meet up with people, but I can't help myself from video chatting with strangers and sexting with random people on apps like Kik. I can't keep doing this... but I also can't stop. I want help, but I don't know where to turn to ask for it. I have a girlfriend who I'm in love with who I would be ashamed if she found out about all this. Also, I have been bearing this cross for years, and I just want to let it go.
     
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    People say the first step is the hardest one. But you know what ? I think thats wrong. The hardest step is to keep going holding on and not giving in. Listen I was into that shit as well for a few months... but I was never that deep in that piece of shit like you are. Here on Nofap you will get the advices you need, the support which will motivate you to keep fighting, the knowledge and experience that will make your way a little easier. It will be difficult really really difficult. If you still want to go this path you will get all the support this community can give you. Imagine a whole group of people cheering you on to keep running to win this race. That is a strong image. Imagine the people you look most cheering you on "Come on! You can do it! You almost got it!". Don't give up... find a reason why you want to stop this. A real reason. Something that is worth to go through this hell. This will be your guardian that gives you cover so you can focus on the main goal. Running this race is your duty. To fight the addiction is the duty of your guardian. Don't fight against yourself. Most people make the mistake to believe that a part of them are the addiction or the "evil" part. There is no evil part. If you fight against yourself you will always lose because the same moment you gain power the part you are fighting against will gain power as well. You need to dive deep into your "mind" or "soul" and accept who you are and see what is the real enemy. Everything is fine now, Why ? Because you are here now! It's do or die time!
     

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