Six months without PMO: A positive end to 2018

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by AtomicTango, Dec 30, 2018.

  1. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Hi guys, I haven't posted a new thread in a while but I suppose theres no better time than now, with me reaching six months without PMO in the last couple of days. I'll preface this thread by linking to these last two, you dont really need to read them to understand what I say but there might be things I forget to mention here that I already mentioned in one of those. Take a look if you want.

    Anyway, I think its fair to say that the routine of NoFap has become properly ingrained in my mind, because the last few months have been noticeably easier than the first few. I still get strong urges from time to time, I still feel like I want to PMO, but its easier than ever to just not do it. Same with the urge to "peek" at porn or other materials, I wont lie, there have been times when I was close to doing it, but I never actually did, so thats a positive. I guess what I am trying to say is that the miraculous day where you wake up and the urges are gone and you are "cured" may never come, but that isn't a reason to give up. After all, if you managed to spend all that time and effort on PMO, surely you are able to do the opposite? This quote from House of Cards, which I am almost certain has been posted before at some point, sums it up better than I ever could:

    “ I’m Doug and I’m an alcoholic. One of the things I do for a living is count. I count votes. Yays, nays, neutrals, abstaining. And I’m good at it. But the most important count I do has nothing to do with work. It’s the number of days since April 4th, 1999. As of this morning that’s 5,185. The bigger that number gets, the more it frightens me because I know all it takes is one drink for that number to go back to zero. Most people see fear as a weakness. It can be. Sometimes for my job I have to put fear in other people. I know that’s not right. But if I’m honest, like the fourth step asks us to be, I have to be ruthless. Because failure is not an option. The same goes for my sobriety. I have to be ruthless with myself. I have to use my fear. It makes me stronger. Like everyone else in this room, I can’t control who I am. But I can control the zero. Fuck the zero.”

    I'll conclude the post with something that I feel I have to say, because I would be lying if I didn't mention it; 2018 was not a good year for me. In fact, it was probably one of the worst years of my life that I can recall. I feel like part of the reason I did so well at NoFap is because it was one of the only positive things I had going for me and that losing it would just make things worse. I wont go into details about this, its too private for a public forum, but what I will say is that going into 2019, I hope to put this frankly shitty year behind me and look towards a better future. Overcoming PMO addiction (or at least keeping a lid on it) was the first step, now I need to take a few more.
  2. Congratulations Atomic Tango! Good job! I hope 2019 is better for you. I agree, 2018 was a painful year for me, but I think 2019 will definitely be better
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  3. Congratulations!
    I wish you a better and succesful 2019 :)
  4. bocmeow

    bocmeow Fapstronaut

    Loved that quote! Thanks for sharing your story!!
  5. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Thank you, I'm going to do what I can to make sure it is better.
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  6. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Thank you, same to you.
  7. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Thank you very much, good luck to you as well!
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  8. graymatter13

    graymatter13 Fapstronaut

    Great job man, I congratulate your stamina and willpower, it is inspiring
  9. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Thank you!

    I'm 5 months in and still feel hopeless with post acute withdrawal syndrome(paws).
  11. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    I can relate, I get what seems like that every once in a while but I try not to dwell on it too much because doing so tends to make it worse. I think with enough time passing the symptoms will eventually stop, but I cant even begin to guess at when that would be.
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  12. Trynagetbetter

    Trynagetbetter Fapstronaut

    That was a very inspiring post. I thought about resetting my counter to 0 every year just to give me the desire to watch it grow back to 365. In other words, exploit my pride/ego. But I think I was also afraid of that counter getting so high and me relapsing. That quote was right on time. I think I have some fears to confront - the fear that I can't really let this go out of my life completely (or maybe even the fear that I can... what then would I be?"). Not sure being motivated by either fear or ego is the long-term answer to healing. Perhaps the longing to be human again...
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  13. getoff

    getoff Fapstronaut

    Congratulations Atomic Tango!
  14. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    I can say from personal experience that the knowledge that relapsing would mean losing so much progress is a big factor in stopping me from doing it when I do get the urge. I can also relate to the fear of changing the routine being very powerful, but its just something you have to overcome with force of will. After a while, the idea of masturbating will seem like something you dont actually want to do most of the time, and occasional strong urges are much easier to control than constant urges.
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  15. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Thank you!
  16. Robbiebob

    Robbiebob Fapstronaut

    Your inspirational and what you achieved is what I'm striving for.... Your a gentleman & we need more good people like you ... Rob
  17. Good stuff man! Good stuff!
  18. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Thanks Rob, its nice to see you are back on the path, make this year the one!
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  19. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    Thank you very much!
  20. Asgardian36

    Asgardian36 Fapstronaut

    awesome post, man! Loved it! Thanks for posting!

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