So... I’m starting this journal about 2 months in to nofap with my boyfriend. So much has happened in the past 6 years of us being together. I can only write that slowly when memories come to the surface to bother me again. I’m only 22. 6 years with my love. And he’s still unsure about me because of P. It hurts. It really hurts to hear that. About a week ago, before his relapse, he WAS sure. He wanted to get married and have a baby. I was so close to my dreams. So.. so close. But P took that away from me once again. Hopefully his streak will last longer this time, and he will really start noticing benefits. It’s funny that saying, how true it really is... that when it rains, it storms.