Small victories!

Hey all, I just wanted to say that as of 20 minutes ago I have officially been sober for a week's time! It's a short time but I feel so relieved

The last few days have been tougher on me though. A former stalker of mine reached out to me at work and I had to shut him up in front of some friends...not fun especially since we were all out celebrating our friend's recent movie deal.

I am closer with my family like old times again, and I couldn't be happier I did have an honest and intense 2 hour talk with my mother today regarding sexuality. She is a firm believer in Gay or Straight, with nothing in between. I for one am finding that I might be bisexual, and open to more experiences with men. However, my desires for intercourse with men are currently based on my years of watching gay porn. So that conditioning has sort of awoken an itch inside of me I've been wanting to scratch.

I did share a wonderful conversation with a fellow member here regarding wants and needs. He explained to me that it is best to find out what my needs are first in life, then to put the wants secondary. So far I have three needs in life and they are as follows:

1. Keep my family and few friends close and do not jeopardize our relations ever again.
2. Work hard every day and be as successful as I can in my career.
3. Find a loving wife, treat her like a queen, and raise a lovely family. <3

I keep these needs close to my heart every day and it's helped me so much this week. All of you have! I don't think I could have ever gotten this far without this page...I don't have any plans on stopping my road to greatness any time soon and I hope you all enjoy reading about it.

Godspeed ladies and gentlemen,

~Dawn.