I was on almost 70 days of no PO, (I struggled some with edging a little in-between) but Was happy I was going so long without O. Fantasies and edging though led me down a bad path of binging out on MO 4 times consecutively after another, It feels horrible, I feel so happy of all the progress I have made, But as a Christian I feel even so much more shame and missing void in me, of the awesome freedom I had been walking in for months. It feels so strange, But I'm starting again. There is no other option but to persevere. But let this be a warning to all of those who dwell on fantasies. They will be your downfall! As a man thinks in his heart so is he, and if you dwell on fantasies, you will inevitable become lost in the entanglement your mind has guided you too. Avoid it now and begin mastering the way you think, distracting yourself from unacceptable relapse causing thoughts. Back to day 2, And this seriously sucks, after being completely confidant I had kicked all of this to the side, and the pain I was medicating with PMO had been healed and dealt with. It is disgusting to me. So I shall begin a new! What else can you do? the only other option is defeat. Of which I will not partake.