It seems that no matter how disciplined I start off anything can trigger thoughts that used to arouse me and lead me to a heavy pmo. Today I was feeling a little lonely and slightly depressed, its withdrawal symptoms for sure. Not to mentioned my 6 month+ dry spell... I spent my whole sunday being unproductive, I kept imagining scenes from that wet dream this morning and I tried to recreate it and take a nap so I can finish off what wasn't finished. But that failed. Looking for a fix I went youtube just to look at videos which I shouldn't be watching before I took a nap, I know I was asking for trouble. This evidently lead me to be even more horny throughout the day. I dragged myself out of my slumber feeling silly about the whole situation and wanted to throw out the trash, but when I went outside to take out the trash I noticed a slightly curvy women standing next to a van, she couldn't see me but I stood outsides longer than I planned just to observe her, I felt like such a creepy bastard. I dont think I wouldve behaved this way udner any normal circumstances. I feel like a teenager again, this chick wasn't even all that hot, I didn't have a boner either from all that wasted edged before. I don't know what has come over me but I took a cold shower and told myself to snap out of it, I hope this isn't the beggining to something horrible. Last thing I want is to do is to go back to pmo. A relapse feels like its just around the corner. But thats not what I want.