So far so good

I am on the 22nd day of my rebooting and to be honest I have not had much cause to falter. However, I am very cautious as I have seen many false dawns in my life in the area of PMO. I have been a slave to these destructive habits for over 20 years now and I am determined by the grace of God to break free.

So lately, I have been having a lot of fights with my spouse some of which are not unconnected with the after effects of PMO in my marriage. Yesterday, the fight was so bad that I felt so frustrated and my mind was filled with negative thoughts. The thoughts kept urging me to engage in one of PMO but I managed to resist.

Today at work, I ran into some lady friends who I have had lustful thoughts about and the urge to engage in PMO became almost overwhelming. I was able to overcome these thoughts with positive thoughts and by meditating on the Scriptures (Yours could be any religious book or if you are non-theist any material that works for you).

It is still early doors but I decided to share to encourage the brothers who are on this journey.

 

Hi Bounty007, apologies for not responding to your post before now. I pray that God will intervene in your situation as He is currently intervening in mind. Part of what has helped me on this journey is a rediscovery of my Christian faith. I have been in your exact same situation and you can never quantify the self-loathing that comes from the things we have done. Of course, you would think that you are free to now sleep around but the first thing that hits you afterwards is the sense of guilt and disgust you feel and of course the hate you feel for the other women. It is really tragic and considering the number of Fapstronauts on this forum, it is really an epidemic. The most important thing is that we have recognised that there is a problem and we are committedley working towards it. We will get there in the end by the grace of God but it won't be easy but it would be worth it.