I am on day 48 hard mode. I have just returned from a family gathering and now I am sitting in my room and cry. I am so lonely. I feel like i don't belong. I can't get involved in discussions, I don't know what to say, everybody is interested in wordly stuff and I am not. I feel empty. people are laughing hard and I laugh just because everybody is laughing. I feel uninteresting, the black sheep of the family, no interesting stories, uninteresting past. I was always the nice boy at school, guess I was afraid to do what I really wanted and so always followed the fucking rules. Now I feel bland. I don't know what to do with my life. i just go to work translate 8 h a day at a computer,come home, eat and go train krav maga (monday to thursday) or sit at home or go out alone somewhere (on weekends). weekends are the worst. Is this normal? what do you say?