So questions about dating while on a streak of no porn.

So i have a gf now and have struggle with porn addiction for 2 years and i am 15. I am confused, so when i am not thinking about anything and when i talk to her i am fine but when i start to think when i talk to her i get worried like "Oh this isn't going to work out or you gonna fuck up doing couple things" Do type of things and honestly i hate it. I like the girl but these thoughts are killing me. i honestly think porn has made me lost all meaning of loved and emotion and stuff and i feel completely sad about it. I also still have Hocd to an extent and have been abstaining from porn a lot better and i also read whatever your wet dreams are about that's what you truly love and all of them have been about woman. Also i have been more sensitive about gay shit people say around me like if i hear a gay joke or picture i legit check my pants to see if i am reacting in anyway and also get weird out more than before. the last serious relation i had before porn was 3 years ago and i remember going thru all of this doubt but i just winged it and it went away idk if it will now since i have a porn addiction and as well hocd.

 

The thing is i am not really struggling with my Orientation i had already went over this problem before on this site and had a teacher who struggle with this problem like me. So i am a lot better and i know what i liked. I have always like girls all my life etc blah blah blah you get the story but i am just worried that Pmo could stop this relationship from working out. I think i am doing better and when we talk about sexual stuff i have had erections. So idk. i honestly think i am just overthinking it cause i am a over thinker when it comes on to stuff like this. Thanks for the advice but i am just gonna take a leap of fate and don't care what my mind tells me if it is negative at-least. I like this girl and honestly i just think i need to get back out there and not let my mind trick me to back out. I just need to get these thoughts out of my mind like "You will not get hard for her when that times comes" or "Your not a good kisser" Etc you get my point. Before My HOCD Trigger like others in this community these questions/ problems would never appear and if so i would honestly just ignore them. I can over come this with her and myself and again i want to thank you for your advice!