Redhood210
Fapstronaut
So i have a gf now and have struggle with porn addiction for 2 years and i am 15. I am confused, so when i am not thinking about anything and when i talk to her i am fine but when i start to think when i talk to her i get worried like "Oh this isn't going to work out or you gonna fuck up doing couple things" Do type of things and honestly i hate it. I like the girl but these thoughts are killing me. i honestly think porn has made me lost all meaning of loved and emotion and stuff and i feel completely sad about it. I also still have Hocd to an extent and have been abstaining from porn a lot better and i also read whatever your wet dreams are about that's what you truly love and all of them have been about woman. Also i have been more sensitive about gay shit people say around me like if i hear a gay joke or picture i legit check my pants to see if i am reacting in anyway and also get weird out more than before. the last serious relation i had before porn was 3 years ago and i remember going thru all of this doubt but i just winged it and it went away idk if it will now since i have a porn addiction and as well hocd.