Social Anxiety, Lack of confidence and discipline

Hi to everyone,

I started using porn at around 14 so it has been around 12 years. Never really experienced sexuality or adult relationships without it in the background.

I have tried to stop this habit several times, but as most here probably know it is really hard. My longest phases of abstinence have been 4 and 6 weeks. Each time excuses for relapsing came so easy and I just didn't have enough discipline.

My motivation to join Nofap and do a reboot are the negative effects I can definitely tie to PM. Even after a week of abstinence I can feel the uncomfortable feeling I feel in groups or at parties vanish. I have this very low grade social anxiety and I'm sure my porn habit plays a role in it.

I also have a lack of interest in potential partners. I lack sexual attraction towards potential partners and can't even remember the last time a girl has showed me signs of attraction in the real world. As strange as it sounds, porn has desexualized me to some degree.

A real physical problem is that I have trouble with desensitization. Over the years I needed more and more time till I can orgasm, to the point where now it is often just uncomfortable.

I really hope I can get some improvement through a reboot. Since I have tried this process on my own before without success, I really hope that this community helps me with the accountability I need to make it through.

I'm really greatful that I found this community and look forward to what it has to offer and what I in return can offer to other members.

All the best,

Tim

 

Hey,

thank you both for welcoming me into the community.

My goal right now is a 90 day reboot. It's a very ambitious goal for me since my longest streak so far has been around 40 days.

Right now I feel really good but it's only been a short while. My strategies for fighting the rough patches, that are sure to come, include the panic button and meditation.