Kai101
Fapstronaut
This has been bothering me for a couple of days now, and I need help. A couple of days ago Saturday night, I had a wet dream . . . I think. It was a weird dream where I was watching people having sex, kind of like porn. I kept watching and thinking my way to orgasm. I kept telling myself, "No. I shoulny be doing this. I'll lose my streak." Then I thought oh well, it's only a dream. If I relapse in here, no big deal, right? I kept getting hornier and hornier until I coudln' t hold it in anymore. I orgasmed while I was waking up from the dream, and when I fully woke up a couple seconds later, I realized that my hand was in my pants. I don't know if I was fapping in my sleep or what. I felt guilty even though it was a wet dream. The thing is, I'm not sure if it was a lucid dream or not, or if I could have controlled myself. Ive never had a lucid dream before, so I dont know what one feels like. I've been beating myself up and obssessing about whether to consider it a relapse or not. I felt great before that dream: more motivation, more energy, more confidence, etc. But now my social anxiety is back, I have no motivation, and a lack of confidence. It feels like a relapse, but I wasn't fully conscious when it happened. Would you guys consider it a relapse? Also, have any of you had a similar experience? If you've made it to the end, thanks so much for reading this.
