Hey Seiretsu here. This is kind of a dodgy topic and problematic for myself, maybe for some of the other guys on here. But this is mostly why I cave in for relapses. Ever since High School I've had a growing soft spot for huge T****, especially African American, Japanese. I'm posting this today because I went to my doctor's office and this really nice lady who I chit chat with actually has "them". Before when she has checked me for blood pressure, etc.. yes I glance, she's been a long term nurse there before I started dating. After my appointment today I was edged on a little bit, it feels just like a rush, shes worn more "comfortable" clothing before.. I can't really shake off of these compulsive thoughts for them. How do we beat them in the mean time of recovering? Of course we can just stay occupied with etc, to not think of them, but if its compulsive.