some progress..

update about my personal case with nofap:

i cant go cold turkey but i have decreased porn usage to around one time in week in stead of 1 or 2 x in day

i have less testicle ache pains especialy this week

i have less excitement to open porn, but when i do, i still edge..

hoping to make it 1 x in 2 week then 1 x in 3 week and so on, till i stop forever. good luck my friends

 

ironically after i posted that, i actually did go cold turkey, havent watched porn or anything erotic since, no PMO.

as u can see i had doubts in myself but i was able to do what i didnt think i could, have faith inurself everyone! its my longest streak now of 9 days, last streeks were 5-7 days max. i keep going, urges slowly coming back but nothing that was able to stop me yet. lets keep it like that.

some progress:
- only had testicle pains around 3 days in the last weeks
- wet dream on day 4, i didnt get any wetdreams at the time that i was doing PMO
- still havent deleted my porn folder but havent opened it at all, not even a glance. last times i deleted my folder, twice, i went edging and downloaded even more. so for now i dont delete it just yet, feels "secure"
- ive usually morning wood but i heard that after no PMO it can become harder erections but havent noticed that yet, staying patient, everything comes with time

 

day 12 now, had struggles at day 11 which made look at explicit content for a few minutes (not porn) but since there was no PMO i went on with my streak.

- been feeling more "clean" as a person so far
- still no other wetdreams or MW
- still getting random erections so everything's fine down there
- today had to go out and had regular long conversations with people, often looking away from people while talking but in general i felt confident. however those were males so its not hard as im straight but when it comes to attractive females i still cant do that, but im taking a step at a time!

edit:
- forgot to say i had blue balls feeling yesterday and last 2 days testicle aches pain again but gone now

 

more than 2 weeks done, day 16 tonight!

didnt think id be this far, im going for 20, then 30 days, maybe even 40 days. i'll do my best, last few days were hard but not hard enough to stop me!

 

thanks man, and you're right

 

Had a lot off on and off streaks of 3 days max and then just gave up and started edging again. I am tired of it... giving it another try. I KNOW i can beat it, I need to focus more.

Day 0
June 4th 9 A.M

 

again at day 3 relapsed, now at day 4 (june 8) feeling ill

- cold but sweaty loose scrotum, normally scrotum goes loose at warm temperature only
- at night very unformfortable feeling in testicles again for many hours, during the day there was no pain, even when i didnt masturbate today
- a lot of nasea from thinking of surgery, because i am tired from the pains and aches i am thinking of doing surgery but i am afraid the doctor will tell my over-religious parents i did masturbation i dont want them to know

this gave me motivation to start again a long streak because when i had a long streak of 16 days, i had no testicle pains for 2+ weeks

Day 1 now (relapse was on june 7 in the night)

 

also deleted my porn folder (which i didnt even do during my 16 day streak) except 1 video i kept it, too hard to delete it because its my favorite

 

day 2 - june 9

- testicle pains drastically low
- no sweaty balls issue
- feeling very good today, positive, strong mind, had a great day but still must fix my sleep schedule, i will try to sleep at 8 am instead of 10 am
- zero urges for PMO

 

Thank you! Day 3 still going

 

in a few hours it will be day 4

- no testicle pains
- high urges today to masturbate to some triggering videos, i feel like i will relapse tonight

 

positive:
- till today i was at day 9 or day 10 nofap
- i had no testicles pains except 1 or 2 days on the beginning of the streak
- i felt cleaner
- it was my longest streak in recent month and second highest streak at all (16 days my highest till now)

negative:
- i relapsed with a 6 hour edging session
- not feeling "regret" this time but more i feel disgusted
- still have same issue that if i delete my porn folder when i relapse i keep downloading them back

next try

 

true unfortunately, wish it was easier but that's life, we will face obstacles

thank you, and good luck as well!

 

yes it feels more "safer" because if i do relapse, instead of edging for hours i'll have the videos already, also I minimized the amount. It was like 50-60 videos now less than 15, there's 5 that are like medium that I can remove too maybe later on. I never open the folder without doing a relapse

 

thank you brother, you too

 

yes but i have one issue, i was suggested to at least remove porn if i do a relapse, but when i tried, it took longer to gain an erection and i didnt feel any satisfaction upon ejaculating, it felt like a waste of time and i didn't enjoy what i did at all. It also felt like i had delayed ejaculation (cant ejaculate exactly on the time i want by myself no matter how hard i try, it took too long)

(so maybe porn is changing my opinion about it against my will)

so if there was no porn in life i am sure i wouldnt be masturbating, although i do remember few years ago i could do MO to thoughts etc but now thats feels unsatisfied

 

with porn the visual is pleasing and masturbation feels pleasing to do it for me, but without porn the masturbation feels forced and i dont enjoy it

after ejaculation with or without porn i feel bad, on some days i watched porn without masturbation or masturbation but no orgasm and i mentally didnt feel as bad

i feel most bad when i MO
after that most bad when i PMO
after that PM
after that P only