Fucking hell!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn it I just ducking relapsed after 17 days clean! Damn it it can't do it! I'm so fucking weak! I'm so pissed off at myself right now! I'm a no good sack of shit! Damn it I'm worthless! Why can't I beat this addiction? Why is it so hard? What do I need to do??? I'm struggling so bad right now!