I started to realize I had massive anxiety and cognitive issues this year . Things just got worst when I got layed off from the covid lockdown. I started binging on a daily basis for a solid month. At that stage, I was no longer able to hold a conversation. My body suddenly became extremely frail . Only then I realized all of it was due to 15 years of PMO which I never suspect to be detrimental to our health. I lost interest in everything as im now emotionless. 1st month was insane as I was suicidal, extremely irritable up until month if June. Little improvement has shown as I manage to keep myself sane. Ive come to the understanding that perhaps my brain has been greatly damaged over the years. Im so debilitated in all areas that I wont be returning to work. My cognitive impairments are a lot worst than I thought. If anyone has experienced anything similar or has any tips to combat this nightmare please do not hesitate to comment. Any support is greatly appreciated. I wish a speedy recovery to everyone here.