I feel like I'm in a pretty good spot right now. Feeling good working out eating right starting back on nofap and everything is looking up. There is something I keep thinking about and hopefully you guys can talk me out of it. POTENTIAL TRIGGER I want to buy a Fleshlight or more specifically a onahole and use it in moderation without porn. I have a healthy view of women and am not addicted to porn. I am rewired and completed a successful reboot. I keep trying to justify this as a way to experience pleasure and build up my stamina for when I find a partner. Is this reasonable and something that will help me or is it something that's going to undo my progress? Btw I'm 18 and am still a virgin. I am committed to finding a girlfriend and not going back to my old habits. This purchase may seem like a step in the wrong direction but I think it could help me relieve some stress and bring me some pleasure without causing any harm. I'm confident I can stay away from porn and this could be something positive in my life before I find intimacy with a partner. I don't think this will discourage me from finding a girlfriend because I really want someone in my life to love outside of just sex. If this is dellusional and a terrible mistake let me know. I just feel like it might be ok to start enjoying some pleasure in moderation and develop my stamina. Nofap has been great for me but I'm reluctant to keep abstaining like this and am not sure what my goals are any more. I know myself and what I want and am free from my vices; I'm not sure if depriving myself of some healthy masturbation is still benefitting me. Please feel free to weigh in here and tell me what you think about this.