I know I have things to do but sometimes, especially in the evening, I just want to talk to someone, about anything. I used to think it would be great if I can talk to a girl. Now a man is also fine. I am not someone who has to be surrounded by people all the time and I know I will never be like that. But being alone does not always feel good.
I know what you mean. It would be great to have someone in real life that is there for a conversation with you. Someone that has a unique bound with you. Like a spiriutal bond between both of you. No I am not talking about a religous bond but more like a really really really deep bond with someone who will never ever betray you... Like a Stand... that can talk to you. Or just a talking dog but that's something every human seeks... I guess
Don't ruin it now... xD Yeah but even talking with yourself is more helpful than just sitting in your room alone with your thoughts. Social activity help a human being even it it's just talking. You are looking for someone that understands you I guess...
Is it possible you could select one night in the next week or so, and go to some event in which there will be some discussion? Some lecture at the library? A community event that needs an extra hand? Maybe a book club? A lot of people feel the same as you. Quitting PMO requires one to make plans and opportunities to keep the mind occupied.
You're looking for solutions to your loneliness outside your own being, when the solution is inside. First, learn to deal with the feeling of loneliness: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...g-with-negative-emotions.235876/#post-2091926 Second, try journaling your thoughts and, more important, emotions and feelings: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/journaling-probably-the-best-way-to-heal.245610/
Try to think in symbols instead of man made language after a while you break the habit. All that talking clutters up your brain with useless conversations. I feel your pain tho...for years i had complete conversations for many hours & days straight.
It sucks when you go to bed at night and you have this exact feeling/thought popping up. During day when you are occupied it's much easier.
I can r I can relate to what @gerry101 is saying, 100%. The feeling is... something else. You get to speak to yourself, loudly most of the time even. I dont think its about boredom or loneliness which according to you could just be dealt with. Its way more than that. I think it needs to be fed what it yearns for and with time, you'd be able to fully journal your thoughts, feelings and emotions
I have a feeling that you are in your early 20s or so. It's one thing to be alone, it's another to be lonely. So get into the habit of meeting and talking with more people. It's not like you need millions of them, but you would probably just enjoy the company of a few like-minded people. Not taking that risk follows you through life. You can do it and you'll enjoy the benefits. Go for it. I am sure you are really cool but are shy around loudmouths. I know that feeling.