Space Marine February - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by EndPornLiveLife, Jan 27, 2021.

I pledge my allegiance to the...

Poll closed Feb 6, 2021.
  1. Space Wolves

  2. Black Templars

  3. Dark Angels

  4. Blood Angels

  1. vicicool

    vicicool Fapstronaut

    Yesterday I heared someone say

    Fight untill you see the temptation right before you, then run.”


    fighting= not watching that show, not being alone, not eating Chili

    running= looking away, turn device off, get up and do smth else, go on NoFap
    - if it’s thoughts in your mind : let them be, but don’t engage further, put on some music, do smth, think about good and beautiful things instead, think about your (future) partner​
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  2. |Astartes|

    |Astartes| Fapstronaut

    I've been away about a week from this forum and any electronic devices in general. Feel like I'm progressing faster when I don't barrage my dopamine circuits with fast rewards whether they be youtube or, for that matter, this forum. We will all eventually step away from this forum after all and be completely free from anything PMO related and I've found myself logging in here a bit too much these past few months. It's better than the alternative but I think that completely disconnecting yourself from everything digital is a discipline in itself and it is healthy to do that from time to time. The only times I've been connected has been at work but other than that I've just left my laptop and my smartphone in my basement and not picked them up until the day after when I've gone to work.
    I've spent the last half an hour or so just reading through all the comments on this challenge and I'm really happy to see all the creative and productive discussions you've all engaged in. Really cool to see the challenge in good hands (props to @EndPornLiveLife for that) during my time away and how you've all kept it alive. So thank you for that.

    I've just been going through the motions of meditation, physical exercise, working/coding and reading and haven't had any time for much else. I've even done away with my stationary gaming PC because I felt it was a trigger for me. It's a big step to not be gaming for me as I've done that all my life but I got rid of the computer so there's no way to boot it up even if I wanted to. This doesn't mean that I won't ever be gaming again but I think that, to get over that threshold in my PMO journey, it is a dealbreaker.

    Anyway... I enjoyed this electronic fast so much that I might actually go another week without logging in to this forum if you don't hear from me. I'm still here and I'm doing a lot better than a week ago. I think I had to hit rock bottom to be able to truly realise what I need to do to rid myself of PMO. I want to say I'm sorry about some of that dark stuff that I shared last time I was here. I just couldn't put on a stoic attitude and I probably sounded a bit defeatist but I just couldn't bring myself to putting on a fake positive attitude at the time. I think that was part of the reason why I wanted some time off this forum. I didn't want my toxic mindset that I had at the time to infect this challenge or the inspiration that you all find in it.

    In other news I beat my personal best in pull ups the other day. So you know... that's cool. ;)

    Right now I'm going to go out for a long walk. It's about -15 degrees celsius at the moment but I feel like that just hardens my resolve to do it. lol.


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  3. Sebbrix

    Sebbrix Fapstronaut

    You know that actually sounds like something I should do as well, I might follow you on the 'no electronic devices' train! I'll still check in on the forums once a day, and reply to texts/emails on my phone because otherwise I'll feel completely isolated in this lockdown, but otherwise I'm going to commit to the same challenge!

    What you said about not wanting to infect the thread with negativity... Last night I was very drunk and talking with my housemate and we were analysing the male mindset, and we agreed that the biggest problem that men as a group face, that almost every man is aware of, is that we worry that we always need to be the strong one, the provider. However, I think one of the greatest strengths of men is the camaraderie that we all feel for each other. Militaries around the world use the phrase "no man gets left behind", and here we are a military group - don't ever think that you'll be hurting other people by being around, anytime you or anyone else is in a rough way, it would be the privilege of every man and woman here to help you get through that. Whether you want to talk it through, or just understand that everyone is there for you, or even jump on a video call and see another human being on the line, we're all here in times of turbulence to make sure that no man gets left behind. Stay strong brother @Primaris , glad you're feeling better, but never think you would be a burden to the rest of us because some shit is happening. :)

    And obviously that doesn't just apply to Primaris; anyone who's going through a rough time, check in here and let us help you through it in whatever way we can
  4. Day 6
    Checking in for Blood angels.
    Another succesful day in not peeking.
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  5. Check-in!
    good start though, but a very clever Deceptive Brain Message came during my thinking. It was watching INTERSTELLAR. I've watched it a few times 1-2 years ago and it became my best sci-fi movie in interstellar travel. But today, It came as a deceptive thought. As today was off for my tuition and I didn't have had a plan about what I'm gonna do in that free time. But then the deceptive brain message came of watching the movie interstellar I thought in my brain that it'll be good to watch and I'm gonna be a physicist so let's watch it again(But it was really a deceptive brain message you'll know why later in this message). Being watching it instead of doing schoolwork or going ahead a little in making my life better by doing science, maths, etc, as they give me a good feeling frequently. But while watching it I soon got a lump in throat sensation(usually comes when I fall in believing a deceptive message), later I got an uncomfortable sensation. And I got the feeling of being engaged (like when I binge anime). And I stopped watching it and got some time off and I was surprised that how clever this deceptive message was and it made me fall into that cleverly. although, I'm a bit recovered now and continuing.

    WHAT I LEARNED TODAY- Deceptive brain messages will make you fall in them by any means:eek:. But you have to be more clever(and you are! as, the thought generated in your brain, But you are your mind and mind is more powerful than brain you would have known it! if not learn about it). So, as of today I will be more cautious and separate deceptive messages from the True emotions(truly called just emotions) and deal with them according to it(the situation):D.
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  6. ToMMy.H

    ToMMy.H Fapstronaut

    @Sebbrix rip dry february I guess :D

    @Primaris Was thinking where the hell is this guy. Good to hear you are going super strong man!

    @Sebbrix well said man! The good old soaked late nate/early morning disccussions are always the best! :D
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  7. ToMMy.H

    ToMMy.H Fapstronaut

    I feel the tension. Everytime I have a bit of free time, the temptations are there.

    I think its the same with energy drink or chocalate. I crave it. I go get it. But now I know I cant. I want to edge so fucking much. I know I cant and wint do that. So I feel like I am in constant battle.
    And like I said, its typical for me, when I crave smthing, like sugar, I go get it. So feeling of not immediately satisfy the need is something I am really not used to.

    Maybe thats why I have headaches. And feel a bit different.
    Yeah like there is something missing.

    I think I am in the procces of teaching my addicted brain that it doesnt really need to prone masturbate on twisted thoughts.

    So lets continue learning.
    Lets get that fucking A+
  8. @happysloth I've added you to the Space Wolves. Welcome to the Death watch!
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  9. I've got a good feeling about this month. The Emperor smiles widely on all his children. They stand tall, side by side with their brothers and sisters, knowing their strengths, knowing their weaknesses, confident in victory...

    C'mon Blood Angels, the Space Wolves are charging ahead, let's even the scores by building our own Deathwatch army.

    Cheers @Primaris.
    Hah! Yes, with those red wine lips you definitely belong in the Blood Angels my man.
    What you said in your other message, that's really encouraging to hear, I'm glad the electronic device hiatus has been helpful! Fair enough if you're not around for a bit so you can get that tech-break.
    As for the sharing dark thoughts, as Sebbrix said - it's all good. No point being fake, I certainly appreciate your honesty as to where you were at.
    Minus 15 degrees sounds nuts...I hope there are some blue skies to go with that freezing walk.
    Nice meme haha. It makes we want to get out of the house and go do pullups in one of the outdoor gyms we have here.

    Hear hear!
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  10. ADMG

    ADMG Fapstronaut

    Checking in for the Dark Angels.

    Similar to @Primaris, I have been limiting electronics use... well, mostly internet use. I locked down the web browser on my phone, and removed my laptop from my room. I also use PluckEye software to regulate web browsing, and I doubled the time delay from 3 to 6 hours (it uses a time delay mechanic instead of a password system). And in order to unlock the web browser on my phone, I need to wait 24 hours for the password in an online, time-delay lock box. Anyway... I've been way more productive, and my prayer life has been a lot stronger too. I highly recommend locking down your web browser on your phone, even if that's not a problem area for you... because PMO aside, it's so nice not to have access to a web browser 24/7!

    Of course, there have been a few urges; but not nearly as many as I usually experience in the first week.

    Keep up the good fight, everyone!
  11. Gtweet

    Gtweet Fapstronaut
    NoFap Defender

    Another successful day bagged. Checking in for blood angels.
  12. Everydayisday0

    Everydayisday0 Fapstronaut

    Checking in, Day 6/28, Space Wolves.
  13. Mya

    Mya Fapstronaut
    NoFap Defender

    fighting= not watching that show, not being alone, not eating Chili

    @vicicool dear sis after @Sebbrix choclate bit, this not eating chilli bit needs explanation. Please shed some light as to what's that all about.. haha
  14. Mya

    Mya Fapstronaut
    NoFap Defender

    Your brain can make you believe in what you really are not.i always was convinced in my mind that quitting M is actually not possible. And I realise now that that thinking was the biggest barriers in not being able to quit it previously.

    I know someone quite close with the exact same situation. That person was being told that oh you are so weak etc since young age. So the person would climb stairs one at a time and not like as the normal person would so. Until one day I saw her and said to her o why are you climbing stairs like that. Do as everyone else does. And they tried it and guess what, they were completely fine doing that. It was just the mind telling them before that you are too weak to do it.

    Believe in yourself and believe in that

    What one man can do another can too
  15. MixerAwersome

    MixerAwersome Fapstronaut

  16. Checking in for the Black Templars! Tic-tac-toe, three in a row.

    @Primaris Dude, the first thing that's going to be "ripped" is that pull-up bar LMAO
  17. Sebbrix

    Sebbrix Fapstronaut

    Check in for the Blood Angels, day 7 and I'm feeling as strong as ever!
  18. Checking in for the Blood Angels.

    Go Space Marines!

    Man that's some intense electronic lockdown. I would not have expected the prayer life bonus too, nice!

    I can hardly imagine not having a web browser on my phone. At the very least it would totally save me some time.
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  19. Checkin in my mind is a battlefield rn. Today I will invest some hours in my recovery

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