Space Marine February - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

@vicicool Well I guess being from the Eastern hemisphere the chilli tolerance is much more and will have to eat significant amounts to feel the effects. But i hear you there. Thanks

 

Hahaha, wow, thank you for your experiment and confirmation. We need to look out for spicy foods too, not just a raw Chili obviously lol.
I think garlic or onions can work similar... anything spicy

 

Yes definitely, good point. In a similar way for western people the alcohol tolerance is higher . And in a similar way to Chili alc can lead to uncontrolled lust and bad decisions, as we all know..

 

That’s the Spirit. Keep going, you got this. Keep that fighting spirit lit!!

 

It dosen’t come instantly, for me after eating spicy stuff it takes about 20-30 minutes until it hits, but yeah everyone is different

 

@Sebbrix tomorrow 30 days..! Keep going man!!

 

Check in! Had a close call today, but I pulled through.

 

I took nearly 2hrs yesterday, lsitening to some music and writing down all my fears (sexual-, career, and personalitywise) and analysed/respondet to them.
Of cause there are many uncertainties in life. But there are also ways to maximise your chances and also very certain things (Like PMO holding you back and making things worse on multiple levels, whilst doing nothing good at all)

 

It's been couple of weeks since I restarted this streak. I will be taking a break for a while in line with @Primaris advice on electronic fasting. I will definitely be avoiding the chilis and choclate during this period. See you all in a bit.

God speed to the wolf pack.

Awwwwooooooo

 

Check in for the black templars

 

Checking in for the Black Templars!

Chilis and chocolate are naturally arousing to us, so what happens...when the two are combined?! A few years ago I discovered that chili chocolate bars are a thing, and that I really like it. One of my friends found out and now she gets me a bar of spicy chocolate every year for my birthday.

 

Check in day 8 for the Blood Angels, still feeling good in spite of my chilli adventure yesterday!

 

Checking in for Dark Angels!
I am having very lazy morning, watching Australian Open, probably going to watch it for a lot of hours, I simply love tennis.

And having some thoughts.
I noticed I can realize whats going on faster and break the chain.

I feel the constant tension.
Is it even beneficial?

I am having some 2nd thoughts/doubts.
I am still pretty sure that what I am doing is unhealthy. At least these 2things:
1) prone masturbation
2) the fantasies I masturbate to

Honestly if I masturbated normal way and had normal fantasy like visualizing normal sex without all the porn stuff, I would not consider going on streaks/challenges like this. I would only watch myself to masturbate 1/week.

But fuck this. I tend to think a lot/too much. I am going to suffer. Going to ride this one through. 90days and lets see what happens.

 

I appreciate your enthusiasm but in my experience white knuckeling only will get you so far.
+ I doubt that you think too much about it. Maybe too unsystematic or even too little?

 

@T0mCrus4der Thx for reaction. Maybe, but that wasnt the intend pount of my post.

I basically wanted to say that if I didnt prone masturbate and used all the porn induced fantasies I would be actually pro fap - just 1x/week.
Because I feel the constant tension and not sure if being horny is the ideal state.
Maybe it will eventually disaspear- the thoughts almost every hour.
After all I masturbated almost every day not so long ago.
So thats why I am continuing to find out whats going to hapoen.

Its true that last week of nofap was the best work week I had in very very long time. So there realy is something to it and I will stick to it.

 

I'd recommend you, to look into sexual transmutation.. BUT I know, that there is a lot of esoteric bs baggage around that topic out there.

But this tention is energy (really) and you can use it intentionally.
And also it's quite an ancient concept. I might even recommend looking more into the concept and philosophy of eros. but I'm not sure what I would recommend out there other than the reforged man course but that's 250 bucks

 

Checking In Blood Angels.

I think now I can understand why I am getting urges to peek and fantasize lately.
These urges were totally gone for some days and are back since few days, probably because I have been eating a lot of spicy Indian-chinese food these days.
Also just now I came to know garlic is prohibited in semen retention. Noodles/manchurians are incomplete without garlic.
I guess for the time I am practicing semen retention I will have to quit eating these foods.

 

Failed again on the 8th today. But this thime I almost doublet my streak therefore I should be clean next month

I need some time to analyze it. will be back later

 

Checking in for the Black Templars. I had a few urges today and the usual thoughts trying to justify a relapse. But it's another day clean and I'm ready to face tomorrow with dedication.

 

@T0mCrus4der thx again for your suggestions. I will watch the ssm youtube playlist.

I am sorry to hear that. Its very good that you went more days without it. Thats progress! And thats the only thing that matters!

How it started?
What was the first true issue?
What was the root cause?
Was there any trigger?

I think you got this!