Space Marine February - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by EndPornLiveLife, Jan 27, 2021.

I pledge my allegiance to the...

Poll closed Feb 6, 2021.
  1. Space Wolves

  2. Black Templars

  3. Dark Angels

  4. Blood Angels

  1. ToMMy.H

    ToMMy.H Fapstronaut

    I am having thoughts every time I have down time. But I notice that something is different. Typically when I have the thoughts I get aroused quickly and start the inner battle.
    Now I have the thoughts and dont feel aroused. I feel like I realize that the fantasies are conpletely fucked up and rather than aroused I feel weird and disguted.
    Also noticing that erection is not strong like always.

    Some work in front of me and then bed time routine.

    Letso go guys!
  2. Sebbrix

    Sebbrix Fapstronaut

    Normally would have stayed off tonight, since I'm trying to reduce my time on social media, but I felt compelled to come tonight to celebrate 30 days - the first time I've managed a month in a long time! I also heard today that I got a distinction in my second masters degree, so today is overall a very good Monday!

    Just gonna share a thought that I had today, would love to hear your thoughts on it, regardless of whether your agree or disagree with it. Part of what makes NoFap forums work, but also something damaging about them, is that it's all totally anonymous and we are able to talk about things that we feel uncomfortable discussing with people close to us. I would never, for example, talk about my struggles with most people in my life (I spoke about it with a handful of people before, but only the people I trust most). However, whilst that opportunity to get stuff off your chest can help with the fight against porn addiction and masturbation, it can also lead to a mental attitude that makes it harder to share things with people in the real world, which can lead to becoming more closed off. I wonder whether the goal, alongside fighting the struggle that we're all here for, is to open up more with people in our daily lives, if we really want to experience the benefits of the battle we're undertaking. We should share these struggles with our inner circles and have deeper understanding with the people around us, rather than bottling things up and letting them out on these forums. I believe it's important to be honest with the people we interact with, and I have every intention of opening up about this sort of thing with my housemate and good friends. Would be interested to get peoples perspectives on this sort of thing?
  3. Everydayisday0

    Everydayisday0 Fapstronaut

  4. Checking in for the Black Templars. I'm still going strong.
  5. ToMMy.H

    ToMMy.H Fapstronaut

    @Sebbrix Congratz on your 30days!!! Dont celebrate with binge session :D

    Good question. This topic is very private and is viewed by population as controversial, so thats why I talk about it only with people I 100% trust, only my best friends, I even talked about it with my mother :D.
    I dont think when you talk about PMO only annonymously on nofap forums that it leads to being more closed. Because this is really not the topic you would openly discuss.
    Lets say if the topic was movies and you would only discuss it online under your nickname and never disccuss it offline with real people. There would be likely some psychological problems like f.e. social anxiety, but when you dont want to talk about porn, about your masturbation fantasies with normal people, its completely fine and probably good choice.

    Just imagine the situation at bus stop -> Hey, whats up? -> Yo man listen, I had this amazing morning, I didnt masturbate, I didnt even think about midgets, unicorns and elfs going at each other, man I am doing so fucking good! 12days! 12days!!! NO PMO!!! When was the last time you let the daddy sauce out of your penis?

    You would probably end up in some very cool facility and there you wouldnt talk about anything at all :D
  6. ADMG

    ADMG Fapstronaut

    Sorry, Dark Angels... I fell a couple of days ago. Kind of interesting because it was a good day and I am still not sure what caused the urges to come on as strongly as they did. (My leading theory right now is lack of exercise... which is part of it, but I'm not sure if that's all of it).

    And, of course, I had the opportunity to PMO because of one access point that I didn't have internet filters on (an old electronic device that I was looking to give away or sell). I was aware of it, but thought I could handle having it around before I got rid of it. Bad news: I couldn't handle it. Good news: It's now gone!

    Best of luck to those still in the challenge.

    Stay strong!
  7. GottaBFree

    GottaBFree Fapstronaut

    I keep resetting around this point when I make it this far. I feel like crap. My brain isn't washed in dopamine and needs to remodel.

    Time to buckle down and get through the dark times to a healthier brain with proper numbers of dopamine receptors.

    Checking in for another day of fighting for the Dark Angels.
  8. GottaBFree

    GottaBFree Fapstronaut

    That's alright buddy. Honesty and Accountability leads to good things. Keep up the good fight!
  9. Sebbrix

    Sebbrix Fapstronaut

    Checking in day 9, Blood Angels hell yeah
  10. Checking in for the Black Templars! I have to say, while I'm only a little over halfway to my record streak, this may be the cleanest streak I've had since joining NoFap. I can honestly say I haven't peeked or fished one single time, which kind of blew me away when I stopped to think about it. I did touch myself for about 15 seconds in the shower a few days ago, but I quickly got hold of myself by changing the temperature. Onward and upward!

    @Sebbrix I definitely understand where you're coming from, but I think it can also be a two-way street. Here we get the chance to open ourselves up, to be honest to a degree that's uncomfortable or even painful, and to see nothing but positivity, love, and support in return. It very well might help us to realize we also have the strength to open up irl, and that we're prepared to face those consequences even if people may not take it quite so well.
  11. Mixolydian

    Mixolydian Fapstronaut

    Sorry, guys, another Dark Angel fell today too. Urges after waking up is what got me. So let another streak begin. NOW.
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  12. Alas, fallen soldiers @SantaHat, @T0mCrus4der, @ADMG, @Plays88Keys, acknowledged. Thanks for letting us know. Please do keep hanging around if you find it helpful - your input is still valuable, and hopefully others' is also for you :)

    @Plays88Keys Any learnings from the experience?
  13. All the best with the electronic fast @Mya

    That certainly sounds like progress if you can notice that in the moment. Good effort with the self-reflection stuff too. I have found that very helpful over the last couple of years.

    Oh I couldn't agree more. I mean, I'm not sure that the forums are a disincentive to share IRL, but they might be. In any case I'm definitely of the view that building the quality of friendships to a level where we can share about our sexual struggles is a super helpful thing:
    - removes the secrecy/shame, builds trust and emotional intimacy
    - it builds the friendship further
    - both the above things are helpful for mental/emotional health and for overcoming addictions in general :)
  14. @GottaBFree - If you keep hitting that wall with your reasons and strategies for NoFap in mind, you'll get through it eventually. Looking at your journal, you've got some epic reasons. Thanks for all that you share there - it's an encouragement to others and I hope it helps you too.
    Your squad of space marines has got your back...


    Oh and thanks Marines for pointing out the chilli thing - I never knew that it could have that effect. That knowledge will come in handy.


    @vicicool You're over 6 months!
  15. MixerAwersome

    MixerAwersome Fapstronaut

    Checking in for BlackTemplars
  16. Today was a shit day! I felt the urges so strong to relieve my stress (of school ONLY!!:mad:). As you've known that my school is shit and is full of super smelly shit! The cause of those urges of relieving stress as usual came from the deceptive brain messages(or negative thoughts). I barely managed not to fall because I wanna overcome all the shit that has happened to me because of this school. I wanna be my that form in which I do not feel guilt, not fell for not having a goal in life( i.e imma surpass tesla and einstein). As I think you don't know that Nikola tesla was inspired(or a friend) for Swami Vivekanada( an Indian sage), who travelled to America to discuss Spirituality aligned with science. I read his book( Teachings of Swami Vivekananda) and I was surprised of his adventures in the Americas and his humorous nature and till where I read I found some of my meaning of life and was feeling very good. But because of my school, it has again distracted me from my path but I'm not gonna stop I have to find my meaning of life and no one can stop me. In his book, I came to know that "SOUL IS THE SUPERLATIVE TEACHER" or "BIGGEST TEACHER". Even now I'm not feeling very good, going through mild anxiety which is increasing hour by hour, but relieving my pain by sharing it (talking to you people).

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  17. Checking in for Blood Angels.
    Today was exhausting day and I am still left to create a new ppt. Sleep schedule is fcked up since last 2 days and I am not sure if I will be able to get atleast 4hours sleep today.
  18. ToMMy.H

    ToMMy.H Fapstronaut

    Checking in Dark Angels!
    Its fucking crazy how easy is to bump into sex related stuff basically everywhere in the internet.
    Some radom add on sexual plastic virgins pop up while I was searching for sports results.
    Obviously clicked it out of curiosity and now I have some dirty thoughts.

    I noticed that avoiding sexual related stuff even the slightes ones is super important for maintaing the calm mind without fantasies.
  19. Everydayisday0

    Everydayisday0 Fapstronaut

    Checking in, Day 9/28, Space Wolves.

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