I would like to say 2 things and please donot take this lightly as I am really hoping that you will give this some thought 1- Forgive yourself 2- this world is beautiful. Just look arround you. Come out of yourself and hold your head high but with humility as our start is from a drop and our end is dust. You and I are just dots as compared to this whole earth.and the earth is like a dot as compared to the universe. So our problems are even smaller then that. Just breath in and breath out feel the strength in your arms and legs. Feel your beating heart and feel that you are still here. Just carry on.