Space Marine January - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

Day 26 completed.
Beginning day 27 .
-Black Templar-

 

hmm depends on your view on the whole topic of sexuallity.
From what I have read now, you actually don't want to engage in "meaningless" sexualy activity.
If you know this deep in your hear you should have an honest conversation with your "primal-self". Reallly lay down the benefits and negatives of all scenarios and make a centered decicion.
Use this as an ankerpoint, when you feel the craving of sex coming up. Remind yourself, that when you were thinking clearly you made this decision, so anything that speaks against in now is much likely a lie (or not the whole truth.. wich is bisically still a partial lie^^)

You can also make use of sexual transmutation (I know this has kind of an esoteric touch because of the online community usage, but hear me out I tell you its real)
You can get a whole other perspective on sexuality. It's not only this itch, this craving, this desire you must get rid of, but it's passion, it's energy and motivation. ANd you can use this! Think about making love to life, in areas that can baer fruit. You can use this anywhere really. E.g. when walking as an extra pep in your step.

Maybe these concepts can guide you in a good direction. Take care!

 

@Primaris Thanks!

 

I promised myself to check in daily so I mist report a relapse.
What happened?
I didnt block my internet data for browsing safari on phone.
I checked the news website because wanted to stay in bed and just do something
There was some spicy news, which I was subconsciously looking for anyway
I intentionally searched for more
Realized wtf I am doing
Felt like I already broke my rules
Just engaged in M

 

damn.
So what are you going to do about it?
No surfing in bed? Getting a morning routine? Maybe an app called pluckeye could help if you still want to check the news (it blocks all images)
+ the last one sounds like unhealthy perfectionism. These is a great video from Mark Queppet (Universal man). Check it out if you want to

 

@EndPornLiveLife Thanks a million!

 

@Primaris @T0mCrus4der Thank you for your tips. Appreciate it.
I had morning routine which was about standing up from bed and go for walk, cold shower, meditation, brekfast -> it worked pretty good. Also blocked the data for safari browser.
I use meditation on my phone before sleep so I go to bed with my phone closeby only because of it.
@Primaris Good point about reading stuff that dont pump me up -> I made the mistake the other night and couldnt fall asleep at all.
@T0mCrus4der thx going to check it out!

Now my morning routine, and not only that, is completely different because I broke my leg. So I cant move much and doctor said I shouldnt move at all if possible for the first week.
To be honest I am very frustrated.
I love sports. I go to gym 4x/week, go for walks daily 1-2times and now I cant do anything.
I cant even sit behind the computer because I need to have the leg laying so the blood wont go down and it gets better faster that way.

I think its very easy to become negative and I can observe a bunch of negative emotions.
I realize now how lucky I was to be healthy and be able to do anything I want without any physical limitations.
This injury showed me that health is the most imporant thing. I shouldnt take it as granted.
Now I am actually looking forward for today/wednesday, because I am going to doctor so I will be outside! I could see again the skys, feel the wind, feel the weather. So excited for it.

 

Reporting in for the Space Wolves!

Here are a few resources, programs, books, and links I have been using in the recent past and present to battle my addiction. I thought I would share. I think we need all the information and knowledge that we can in order to beat this addiction. If you have any resource, book, or tool that you are using to fight porn addiction please share! A soldier can not fight effectively without weapons in his arsenal.

1. Porn Free Radio Podcast https://recoveredman.com/
2. The importance of developing a relapse prevention plan https://novarecoverycenter.com/recovery/5-key-components-of-a-relapse-prevention-plan/
3. 90-180 day program to overcome sexual addictions including porn and masturbation http://recoverynation.com/recovery/
4. The Presence Process by Michael Brown. A book that helps one integrate charged emotion emanating from childhood through meditation and some perceptual tools.
5. Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy by David Burns. A book based on cognitive behavioral therapy to improve mood and deal with negative emotions.
6. A Brand New You: The Ultimate Guide For Quitting Porn and Self-Transformation by Greg Strattner Jr.
7. Porn Recovery, Dr. Trish Leigh - YouTube Channel https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2UjsmTlsL1IhqiRt2oKvXA/videos
8. You Are Not Your Brain by Jeffrey M Schwartz. A book to help break destructive thoughts and change bad habits including overcoming addictions
9. 4Ds relapse prevention strategy https://www.choosehelp.com/topics/a...-ds-2013-a-simple-relapse-prevention-strategy

 

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I relapsed again today. That's, what, the third or fourth time this month? I'm falling back into the five-day cycle that plagued me before I joined the NoFap community. As I was looking back I realized that I've become rather soft, or complacent. I do well for a few days because the urges aren't present, but when they return in force I fold pretty quickly. What I'm going to do is head over to my journal and write out as many reasons as I can think of that PMO is evil.

 

Reporting for the Space Wolves

 

Thanks for these.

 

Day 27 finished.
Starting Day 28.
-Black Templar-

 

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Greetings,
brothers and sisters. Hope you're fine slaying demons left and right.
I've read the last pages of the thread and it saddened me to see many of us had to face tough moments, deal with relapses and venture into dark places. As the self-proclaimed Meme Marine (I wonder if being self-proclaimed will draw the attention of the Ordo Hereticus ), I want to share this little, silly thing I created in the hopes that it will cheer you up. I look forward to resist PMO together one more month in the February challenge; we will learn something more about us and make our daily life better, of that I am sure.
Have a glorious day!

 

Day 28 completed
Day 29 checking in.
-Black Templar-

 

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