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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Primaris, Sep 29, 2020.
@philosopotato hell yeah, will medt you there
I am drinking a bit so have to be giga careful now.
Day 4 for Blood Angels!!
Check in can't let you ppl down.. @Primaris my name is not on the list even though I tagged you in this thread for joining this challenge
i am sorry guys, i just relapsed.
Guys watch this video it will help you alot .....watch it peacefully
Fucking hell guys. I almost lost it.
It was the classic. I got drunk -> i wanted to taste new plumb bottle and it went south.
I did the most useless activity afterwards -> played CSGO.
I dont even enjoy playing the game sober anymore.
I went for a walk and then go to bed.
Everytime I am in bed its big danger, because I am addicted to prone masturbation while fantasizing -> I dont struggle with porn itself but have problems managing my thoughts/fantasies which are typically based on the type of porn I used to watch - abusive stuff.
So I wike up early - couldnt sleeo because was drinking and my self control was much lower than usual.
I did some edging.
Luckily realized wtf I am doing, that I want to win the october challenge the same way I/WE won september chalkenge, cant let my team down and just cant weaken our position.
I got up, went for looong walk and now feeling much better.
I challenge myself to:
NO DRINKING IN OCTOBER - not even 1shot
NO EDGING - not even a tiny bit, its even harder to stay on track afterwards
So yeah, started the day with huge victory and I keep going.
Hows my team DARK ANGELS doing?
@philosopotato , @ToMMy.H . I'm doing absolutely fine. It's just the start, still long way to go !
Proud of you @ToMMy.H Talking about fantasies, I had those last month. What kept me on going was September challenge and understanding that I cannot resist my fantasies for a long time but I can make them dissapear. While other people are trying do distract themselves with activities, I somehow learned to reject those thoughts and I was surprised by the effect of that - one moment I feel immense urge (fantasy came) and the other, I feel no urge at all (fantasy gone). It was four days in a row when I was under attack by fantasies and managed to not fall for them because that kind of thinking is unacceptable for me. I think that the most difficult part of such challenge is to keep your conciousness clean, I occasionally want to take a look at that part of my mind and that is a first temptation I have to resist and if I resist it, days pass and I have no difficulties with abstaining from PMO.
Sorry guys I couldn't resist my thoughts and did little edging and it fall down again in that trap....
Hope you guys do well never give up ....I promise you that I will clean my rest of month
Ended up relapsing out of nowhere, gotta retrace my steps and figure out how that even happened. But this is the most progress i've made in a while, so streaks and challenges aside, im happy.
@MarioVargas very nice piece of content -> definetely going to help me and all of us in our fight!
@philosopotato yeah exactly thoughts management is the key and actually not only in NoFap -> thats probably one of the reasons why people after some time see benefits, because we are learning step by step how to tackle the urges -> actually very good tool how to know yourself a bit better and what works for each one of us
For me, I try not to fight the thoughts. Rather think about it as a small river and observing how f.e. a small leaf is going down the stream. Its important not to get to invested in it and just let it pass.
I would like to here your opinion in this: (btw. strongly recommend reading psycho-cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz)
Fellow fapstronauts, I red in a pretty good book (psychocybernetics - maxwell maltz) that the human nervous system cannot tell the difference between an actual experience and an experience imagined vividly and in detail.
It got me thinking. I stopped watching porn for quite some time now. But I still have these fantasies. Sometimes they are super strong sometimes I can control them.
The thing is, if I dont watch porn anymore but still at least once in a week have very detailed fantasy which includes exactly the stuff I used to watch (abuse, domination,...), if it isnt exactly the same as watching the porn.
I mean the very datiled fantasies, which many times led me to edging ->relapsing.
Its not really a normal sex fantasy. Its abuse, domination, humiliation only. Sometimes I think I am such a sick twisted fuck.
So I am asking you, what are your experiences with this, what are your thoughts on this topic.
Does intense detailed sex fantasies (which are heavily rooted in porn I used to watch) are the same as watching the porn?
Sorry man. I'll add you now.
Your Primarch, Lion El'Jonson, is proud of you.
Just look at him with his glorious winged helmet and lion pets...
You get right back there dude. No binging.