So, I know that there are many aspects that come in to porn and masturbation and I'm going to explore the reasons I have come to it and what I can find in it that are false perceptions/deceptions. I'm also going to list pros/cons and I really have all this floating around in my head, just need to get it on paper. i hope God will also reveal some things to me but I don't have faith that he will so there in turn they'll be words hitting the ceiling again. I'm not doing this for a significant other because there's so many issues with me and I'm a loner. I'm not even doing this for friends or really anyone but me. I want to be content in myself. I want to know it's because of my personality flaws and not merely a bad habit that people don't want me.