Starting a NoFap journey after multiple previous attempts

Lancelotprime

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Hi, I'm 37 years old and probably one of the longest porn-addicted persons ever, I started at the early age of 12 years old and until yesterday I've been an addict consuming all kinds of PMO, meaning that I've been addicted for 25 years, having passed puberty with that problem until now.

I'm from Mexico, and English is my second language so I hope you can forgive some of my bad orthography and other common mistakes while writing. Having consumed for that long time, of course, I started before the Internet porn age, so I was initiated in the old school way, with magazines, and some VHS tapes, but it was gradual for me, as the internet started to grow I first consumed images of naked women, etc, to then soft-porn pictures to hardcore, small samples of video, to full-length scenes, and that escalated to all kind of consumption to the point that my dopamine was taken to watch interracial scenes, to now hotwife and cuckold king of content.

All of this has of course affected my personal and professional life, as I've felt tired, and mentally foggy since my high school days 'till now that I'm married and less than two years of age son. I've tried multiple times before to quit, having gone to therapy, a SA group, and more. Nothing has worked out. I'm currently unemployed, as I was cut from my job last week due to the company having some troubles, I was one of 30 people that was let go by them.

Despite the fact, that this is my countless attempt to quit PMO for good, I do want to do it for at least 90 days with a forever goal, as the longest streak that I had has been 30 days probably since I was 12. Now is the time, I can't let this continue any longer and will try to write in the forum as often as possible about how things are going for me. If someone takes the time to read this, thanks for your support and appreciation.
 
Hello,

I just finished reading your story. I just re-joined this forum after some time away from it, but I'm in a similar situation to yourself, having discovered PMO at a similar age. Nonetheless, I wish you all the best on your journey to recovery; you most certainly aren't alone in this path.

As I've said, my experience is similar toyour own; we're near each other in age and I've definitely experienced many of the symptoms that you've dealt with in the past, namely the "mental fog" and constant fatigue, which has plagued me for years. I definitely feel like my attention span is greatly reduced and I have far less energy than a man of my age group (then again, my lack of gym attendance is another huge problem).

While I'm not in a comitted relationship myself, I can imagine that dealing with adiction must be all the more difficult with family involved. On one hand, you want to set a positive example for your child, but at the same time you're battling addiction. Even in my case, I have relatives with incredibly high moral standards, and it really sucks having to hide this part of my life from them, while they remain convinced that I'm something I'm not.

Once again, I hope you beat the addiction this time. Cool user name, by the way; I'm a huge King Arthur fan.
 
Hello,

I just finished reading your story. I just re-joined this forum after some time away from it, but I'm in a similar situation to yourself, having discovered PMO at a similar age. Nonetheless, I wish you all the best on your journey to recovery; you most certainly aren't alone in this path.

As I've said, my experience is similar toyour own; we're near each other in age and I've definitely experienced many of the symptoms that you've dealt with in the past, namely the "mental fog" and constant fatigue, which has plagued me for years. I definitely feel like my attention span is greatly reduced and I have far less energy than a man of my age group (then again, my lack of gym attendance is another huge problem).

While I'm not in a comitted relationship myself, I can imagine that dealing with adiction must be all the more difficult with family involved. On one hand, you want to set a positive example for your child, but at the same time you're battling addiction. Even in my case, I have relatives with incredibly high moral standards, and it really sucks having to hide this part of my life from them, while they remain convinced that I'm something I'm not.

Once again, I hope you beat the addiction this time. Cool user name, by the way; I'm a huge King Arthur fan.
Thank you for reading and writing, let's hope everything works out for both of us!
 
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