Starting again single

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Recovering PA, Aug 15, 2018.

  1. Recovering PA

    Recovering PA Fapstronaut

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    I've not been in a good place for a couple of weeks, I'm newly single after a 6 month struggle rebooting with an SO and she finally left although not out of my house yet, by the end of August I'll be on my own.

    I've taken it badly and fap'd more than I would like to admit. I'm ready to reboot again as a single person and am starting a new chapter of healthy living.

    The last 2 or so weeks I devolved into my old self and am feeling really low about my behaviour. Rebooting is my only real option. Going on holiday end of Sept on my own and hoping to get perspective away from the normal scenery and distractions.

    I will update my journal and this log every day or so and hope to get back to a good place.
     
  2. Does she know about what is going on and your problem you are trying to fix?
     
  3. Recovering PA

    Recovering PA Fapstronaut

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    Yes we have been working on it together for 6 months but it's too much for her as she has many issues herself and can't afford a relapse in her addiction, it will literally kill her so I have to let her leave before it's too late for her. (Alcohol before you ask)
     
  4. Ah, understood. In that case I hope you both are able to get control of your addictions. Who knows maybe in the future.
     
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  5. guyinsideout

    guyinsideout Fapstronaut

    Good luck to you!
     
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    Still on the wagon, keeping busy.

    Feeling ill and life kicking me whilst im down but fighting on regardless. Severe caugh n lots of bad cramps along with washing machine dying on me, log burner needs fixing etc. They will get sorted in time.

    Ive rebooted once before whilst trying to rebuild a damaged relationship. Although i wont have someone to be accountable to i also wont have anyone judging my every move. Ive got a lot of challenges/ tasks to complete over the next few months so plan to keep busy and get well without FAPing.

    I feel hopeful for the future.
     
  7. thedarkbird

    thedarkbird Fapstronaut

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    Don't raise the bar too high. When my girlfriend and I broke up end of 2016 it was not the time for me to quit porn, it would have been too much. I'm not saying that you shouldn't try, just know that some periods are better suited to quit addictions than others.

    As long as you're not fooling yourself with excuses like 'My hamster is ill I can't stop now' ;-) (apologies to people with strong emotional connections to their hamster).
     
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    I know its not healthy now, was fooling myself before being educated. Its like an alcoholic drinking again, its lost the appeal. I cant control it alone and need this group to keep me grounded. I want go live healthy and have another relstionship soon but cant if i dont reboot.
     
  9. Great to hear you are going to fix this before moving into another relationship. It will feel so much better going in with a clear head.
     
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    Yeah dont want t carry this baggage with me, i've already ruined one woman because of my addiction it wouldnt be fair to do it to a second. I didnt realise i was doing it to the first and i have tried my best to make amends.

    I want to be a better person than i have been and with this community behind me i have the power to succeed.
     

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