Starting Fresh (4 years later)

I've had an up and down time with porn. Not proud to admit that I've been trying to quit for 4 years unsuccessfully. Urges, laziness, and bad habit lead me back. I've met a girl who I've been with for 3 months and intimacy is hard sometimes. Her and my family know about this. They see my failures and I feel like they've given up on me. A lot of times I give up on myself, chasing the high and the adrenaline.


I want to be a good man. Healthy both physically and mentally. Porn has beaten me down almost into utter despair. I know I'm addiction and powerless right now. Time to get some power back.

Goodbye to fetishes, all nighters, and self loathing. I got to much love stored in me now. A great girl to fight for and an incredible family. Most importantly myself. I'm not going to attack this with blanket statements about porn and so many other things. I just know I have a problem I need to solve and it's time to solve it. No more rabbit holes. I love myself enough to fight. Thank you.