Starting my first reboot.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Ryan64d, Feb 12, 2016.

  1. Ryan64d

    Ryan64d Fapstronaut

    42 yo married guy who is thrilled to have stumbled on this forum last weekend.

    Some background...I have masturbated for as long as I can remember. I have memories from as early as 4-5 years old of having multiple O's while lying on my stomach watching cartoons. This pattern of several times a week has continued most of my life.

    There were issues of guilt associated with this having been raised Catholic and attending Catholic school. I tried quitting many times but without much success.

    In college I first began to use PMO. Internet was just becoming widespread. I would secretly look at pictures of nude men in computer lab.

    The masturbation has always been there but the PMO has just gotten more and more out of control the last 10 years. Needing to watch while I masturbate for example.

    Consuming spare time and energy. My marriage and finances have suffered not because I spent money on porn but because I spent time, focus, energy.

    I honestly don't know how I will feel going without it. I have never gone more than 7-10 days before. Might have been after my vasectomy because it was painful.

    Any suggestions for an accountability group?

    I am 5 days in right now and pushed through two tempting late nights.

    I have been impressed and encouraged by the support I have seen on here.

    Ryan
     
  2. rocky77777

    rocky77777 Fapstronaut

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    hi ryan :) all the best to you . i know that you will be happy forever now as you are going clean :)
    i happy that you are on day 5 . keep up the great work man . and i know you will be clean for life now as you yourself know how bad it was , and you deep within can feel that these 5 days are one of the most productive ones . you have so much time and you have done things which you could have possibly never done :) so good work sir . and i know that your lucky wife is proud to have such a great husband like you :) lots and lots of good wishes to you and your family . keep it up .
     
  3. Ryan64d

    Ryan64d Fapstronaut

    Thanks for the kind words. Finding this forum and knowing I am not alone was a big relief. Here's to five more days !
     
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  4. rocky77777

    rocky77777 Fapstronaut

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    please sir , no need to thank me . we are all together in this . you were never alone , you have the best family ever and the most lovely wife , please , never forget that ! and here's to "life" because now , you will be clean for life . who cares about counting days . life is yours sir , go ahead and live it :)
     

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