Stop giving Shitty Excuses

Everyone who say to themselves like : "I am going to go Porn-free and Masturbation-Free for a while and just feel what those other guys are talking about", it's actually great to put in that effort and have the thought of going there. I mean, it's a really good forethought, but, just like any other objective in one's life, Success in relieving oneself from Porn and Masturbation require long term practices, determination, their own reasons and a Clean mind-set. I had always been there, thinking, won't I be able to break free from this cycle, and won't I be able to feel all of those things described by people in here, who are making Break-through's by falling out of this vicious habit of their's ? but, each time I thought so, I would always only see the success that they had achieved, Those numbers on their PMO counters, and those thing's they describe that they felt when they had been able to out-do their urges, and, where they had started from with this addiction, only that did I see. I don't know about the other's in here, but I definitely saw only that. I also went on to post something about doing NoFap just because of the enthusiasm I have got after having read someone's post, of having had something happen to them when they had abstained from PMO-ing for a while.

Now, I rather feel why not to do this. I was away from all of this (not-by-choice) for not more than 3 days, and I have already seen the impact that Porn had on my life. I mean I sexually fantasise on every-day people I see in my life, and that is very disturbing. I always keep on thinking about such stuff, and just while writing this, I also discovered that it's starts as the first thing in the morning, when I see some neighbour or some woman in my locality, then get into my fantasy world, and I never get back here again. I keep going and going, while on they way, seeing other women in the meanwhile, would still add fuel to the already high-on burning fire. Then, I think of watching porn because my brain tells me that I am bored, which is mainly because I am doing nothing more than just fantasising on people and Why is that ? It's due to my obsessiveness with porn. Porn had turned me into that guy. So, eventually after getting bored, I decide to get banging, and try to resist my urge a few times before finally giving up. Now, this is not even a true Trial to give up PMO. I had these unreal and improper idea's, on what porn was doing to me. Later, pretty much come back here, then go over to start again, but, here's the main catch. Every time I gave up, I didn't find out what I was doing wrong. I didn't even think if what ever I was doing was correct. Hence, I had not known that I would always have been stuck on this poisonous cycle if I had never asked myself questions like:

Why am I doing this ?
What am I getting by doing this ?
Am I really trying to get out of this Habit of mine, if so, Why am I trying to get out of this habit ?
What will I get after experiencing being away from this ?
Am I doing this for myself, or am I doing this just because every-one else are doing it in here on NoFap too ?

The reason for not doing it should 'not' just be like, I feel bad after doing this and feel heavy and that's why. No, it should be more of like why you feel bad and heavy like that after doing it, because, only when I have my own reason's as to why I am doing this, then I would really want to experience all of those stuff, that I want to, from abstaining from this habit. If you don't have any reason as to why you have to stop from this, you would always come up with lame excuses so as to relapse again and again and all over again.

I was just trying to be a fapastronout just because people on here were doing this abstaining thing. I mean I really felt I needed to stop this, but had no reason on why to stop this. Ofcourse, it's generally a bad thing to do ( PMO-ing ), but what's really bad in it for me ? Only when people realise what's bad in it for them, will they able to get to the decision of really getting one self cured of this practice. For me, it was because I had gotten to the stage where I was fantasising on people I would meet in my everyday life. I felt like it was a normal thing to do after all because Porn had made me feel like that. It had told me that : "Fantasising on someone whom you just saw and didn't have any idea on their life, that's normal..You jerk off to them ? No big deal too !". I was not even knowing what I was going through by then. I was just stuck in all of this mess. I mean I knew there was something really bad about this, but I really didn't know what that "something" was so I continued doing it, and was giving myself lame excuses to start over again.
Now, I it's been two months of NoFap journey, and I was religiously doing NoFap with my fullest determination while not knowing what that something was, which I felt really bad about. It's completely okay. Everyone start there. They have that Bad feeling in them, so they start with NoFap. They create an account here; instead of doing something bad like they usually were doing before, now they spend time here trying to improve themselves but, that's not enough. You have to get to the next level. That is, simply from doing it just for the sake of doing it, you learn on why you are doing this, and you try to figure out what that something is for you. Hence, you have got to move on and start doing it for real guys. When you find out the reason behind why you are doing it, you start doing longer streaks and start to realise the real value of NoFap, and for me, it's just been four days , but, these four day's were a little bit different than the other Four day or more streaks I have been on earlier. On these four days it was all relatively so easy to be away from Porn and Masturbation. I wasn't even thinking about them, and I was not fantasising on people, while I was doing something else that mattered more than Porn. I have also got the feeling that this Time, the streak is going to be so much more longer, or maybe, this might be it, the final time I had reset my counter. I am now, ready to face all the hurdles that might come in my way, but, I will surely be wary of them. I wish you all start thinking and start along with me as well.
Good Luck in your Journey, CHEERS....

 

If anyone starting along as well, let me know about it...

 

Thank you for this. It's so good. Feels like the truth.

 

and, what's that ?I don't get what it means ..

 

Alright, thanks for the insight.

 

Thank you for the kind words, and thank you for the hope you have on me. I am sure I will make you proud, through fulfilling the expectations you have for me.