STORY OF A 16 YEARS OLD NEW TO NOFAP

Hello , I am 16 years old and i am male and i started masturbating when i was 13 years old and today i am 16 and when i wake up at morning , i start my day as thinking how to get rid of masturbation addiction , orgasm and porn. The whole day i spent thinking about porn and how to get rid of it. I remembered the time i.e. when i was 11 years old i first watched porn in my mother's phone . At that time I watched porn in 6 months or 1 year till i reached 7th class i.e. 12 years old. I remembered I used to watch porn when my Summer Vacations of my school started . I remembered that i first watched porn in my mother's phone and then in internet cafe near my house . At that time i usually goes to internet cafe to do my school's summer vacation homework and after doing it I just visited some of the porn sites in internet. First time I watched porn in my mother's phone [11 years] and then second time in internet cafe in order to do my school's summer vacation homework[12 years]. But when I was 12 years old , I was in 7th class and i had my half yearly exams , so i study at night with my mother's phone and I watched porn every night before the exam. At that time i did not know about masturbating. But as i watches porn so at the end they usually cum and sperm comes out. At that time i did not know that how it comes out but i wanted to release the sperm out and i also remembered that at that time I call it "White Liquid" and at that time i also think that this white liquid is a artificial cream used by porn stars. But when i was 13 years old [just became 13] i remembered that day i just went to washroom and started seeing my penis and i pull it down to see that pink skin and i just pull it back to brown skin and do it 2-3 times [but not continuously] and then after 10 minutes i did it continuously and i felt great and 1 drop of sperm also came out i remembered. Next day i again did it and felt pleasure. But at that time i masturbated without seeing porn till when i became 14 years old. When i became 14 years old I once took my mother's phone to washroom and this was the first time i saw porn and masturbated . It was a great feeling and till now i do that. After some months of masturbating with porn I thought that this is wrong. I usually masturbated 4-5 times in a day and saw porn and think about porn whole day. I cannot focus and concentrate in my studies. First thought to stop porn and masturbation first came in my mind when i was 15 years old . Between 15-16 years old i was in depression and i thought that i can not do nothing in my life. I tried to stop masturbation and porn but i was unable and i failed. I always think that why i started masturbation. Today i joined NoFap and i started nofap to get rid of addiction. I was topper of class when i was in 6th class . There was also no problem when i was in 8th class i.e. 13 years old . But when i started watching porn and masturbating my life ruined. Means starting years of masturbating may feel you good but after 1.5- 2 years you get problems. So i started nofap today with a hope that i can leave this habbit . I am gone mad because my simple life has ruined. I remembered that when i do not masturbate life was awesome and today my life is ruined. I started my day thinking how to leave masturbation and ends day thinking about it and next day so on. My grades of my class fell from 1 to last[seriously] .I always think that what i am doing i my life. I started nofap today i promised myself to post journals everyday that how i feel when i started nofap. Thankyou guys for reading my whole story........

 

Thnans bro

 

Thanks bro...

 

Welcome to NoFap. You can do this, the first few days will be challenging for you, but what always works:
-Find something to make you busy
-Blend in with your family members and talk to them or help them
-When you nearly about to M (masturbate), say NoFap in your head few times, your brain should remember what you’re doing (that’s what I do and instantly I regain my consciousness).

Im 18 and have been in similar situation as you.

 

Thank you for your wishes mysteryjester94

 

Hello and welcome to the community