Strange porn addiction and can I reboot?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Benwow, Jul 11, 2018.

  1. Benwow

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    Hello, am 15 years old and I masturbate on porn since am 12. The first time I watched a porn I was around 7 years old. I was on my dads pc to play some online games and then I saw Youporn so I clicked on the website and started watching, I didn't really know what sex was. Some years later when I became a Teenager I began watching porn every time I masturbated I was around 12. Then when I got 14 I was so addicted that I started to watch a gay porn and that was really weird since I know am Hetero, So now am in a situation that I watch transwoman porn. Today is day 1 for my reboot and I really hope that in the next 90 days I will get normal again.


    So my question is, can I recover from this?
     
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  2. Broadcast Engineer

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    Yes, of course you can. Just stick to your goal and never go back to any kind of porn!
     
  3. Dagger323

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    Your reboot most likely will happen in 90 days or under because you haven’t been addicted that long. For some of us it can take up to two years and beyond. Quit now while you’re young and don’t allow this habit to consume you any more. If you can break free of this now you’re ahead of most of the rest of us.
     
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  4. MD97

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    put every possible effort and be aggressive as possible so 7 years later you wont be regretting your wasted years like me
     
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  5. Benwow

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    Thank you for your answer that gives me hope :)
     
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  6. Benwow

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    Thanks to all of you :)
     
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  7. Sonny.Smith

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    I have been addicted to this for well now over twenty years and envy you for your awareness at this age. wellـdone you and of course, recovery is possibble for you. Just take note of some of the following:
    1. take your recovery one day at a time
    2. Meditate and if you relate to sprituality, pray
    3. Eat healthy
    4. Exercise
    And remember recovery is about leading and living a better life
     
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  8. Benwow

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    Thanks, I will try to do it like that :)
     
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  9. Benwow

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    Hi again so my reboot didn't go that well I'm trying again I'm already off porn for 2 days :)
     
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  10. Of cource you can. I have a similar story and it's not that unusual. Good for you for taking action.
     
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  11. Scarab Beetle

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    Of course you can recover. Don't give up my friend. You are quite lucky that you got to be self aware of yourself at such a young age and are willing to take steps to let go of this addiction.
     
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  12. Mitsuro

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    I’m very inspired by your maturity and your desire to be the best version of yourself. Yes you can recover, just keep going one day at a time. All the best to you!
     
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  13. Grandpa61

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    Yes my friend you can recover from your porn addiction. We are here to help and encourage you to succeed.
     
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  14. Grandpa61

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    Take it one day at a time. Don't focus on the past or the filter focus on today! Do you know what your triggers are? If so, how do you avoid them? If you can't avoid them what do you do to cope with them? We are here to help you my friend!
     
  15. Curious how no one has commented on your newly acquired tastes in porn... It's only recently, since the launch of new websites such as yourbrainonporn that I've learned that it is absolutely normal to acquire new tastes and fetishes as you spiral downwards into the pits of addiction.
    You are not alone and it's about time this taboo and secrecy about masturbating to men in porn is dealt with. For the record I've never really liked seeing men naked but like you I've masturbated to men in porn, especially in straight porn (never really liked gay porn but yeah been there too).

    Here's the thing... Desensitization is a very real and disturbing process. So much so that it doesn't take too long for you to need more shocking porn just to break through that tolerance barrier your dopamine pathways have set up with months or years of porn use. This may or may not fully reverse itself with prolonged abstinence. I've though that I'm secretly gay too. But I'm not, for the simple reason that I don't like men in real life and only crave emotional bonds with girls/women. At the same time you may have trouble getting it up seeing pictures of even the hottest women because of this desensitization, when your gay fantasies may get you erect with relative ease. This is novelty chasing/coolidge effect. Rather interestingly my sissy fetish/gay sex cravings escalated after having lost my virginity to a girl (while still liking girls very much). So the fact that you're seeing something in porn you can't act on in real life can cause a craving for these things. Some guys get transwoman fetishes, for others it will be about the type of overly masculin men you see in those videos. Know that this is normal for someone with porn addiction and does not mean you are gay. If you were gay you wouldn't freak out about it since you'd love men and feel good about your desires, not disgusted the moment you got off to one in porn. Why this happens is beyond me but it's a fact that sexuality, especially in fantasy, can be reconditioned. The fact that you're losing your sperm in front of a screen and are forcing yourself to helplessly watch another man have sex with a good looking girl doesn't help either as this will destroy all feelings of masculinity and self-esteem.

    I've noticed fetishes about transwomen and other men are quite common. I was absolutely blown away the moment I read a story on reddit about someone who's had the same fetish, in which he imagined being the woman in porn. For years I thought it was just me! That right there is severe escalation, addiction and dopamine desensitization. Needless to say all of this combined can cause severe depression or anxiety in someone, and I'm no exception. But it doesn't mean you are secretly gay or trans or bi. What it means is that your brain is so desensitized in fantasy that it is looking for new ways to avoid neurochemical tolerance. You may indeed end up with a sexuality that is completely inverted in front of a screen, and you may indeed find yourself in an identity crisis because of this. Porn is turning young boys and men into girls and it's about time people open up about these desires because there is absolutely no real meaning to these fantasies. Straight guys will jack off to men and gays will start jacking off to women after having had this porn habit for a while. The distress this can cause obviously means you are better off without porn or fantasy in your life. Minutes or hours of pleasure aren't worth your mental health.

    For more information see https://goodmenproject.com/featured-content/can-you-trust-your-johnson/
     
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  16. Grandpa61

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    @Benwow please read @bken ’s post above! If you haven’t yet read Your Brain On Porn you should. I’m reading it now and I’m learning a lot. Hang in there my friend!
     
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