Don’t know if some of the words may trigger but just a heads up.. I have strong sexual desire to look at explicit pictures when I abstain from PMO. It gets to a point where I don’t want to use sex with my wife. I just want to see other women. It’s over hype because once I look I tell myself this is fake. The women don’t care about me. I’ll never meet them. And even if I did meet them I wouldn’t even want to touch them. They’re showing their body’s off for the world to see. It’s not attractive but I guess it’s the habit that I’ve turned to when these hyper sexual feelings have come about in the past. I guess I need to find something to do when I get this strong desire. I don’t want to have sex with my wife just to get rid of the feeling. I want to have meaningful sex with her. Last night I started with looking up the type of women that I like and then turned to more explicit pics. Even today while I’m at work I started looking for escorts even though I know I’m not going to contact them or visit. I noticed I do it when I’m in a bad mood. These past couple days I’ve felt disconnected from people like I can’t relate to them or don’t care, frustrated with different situations. I know things temporary but I need to put a plan in action for when these emotions build up.