How can a trigger become so strong! At this moment i just want to scream or even better chop my head off! After many years of trying to quit PMO unsuccessfully i found this online community and help and i started my rebot in March 2016. Wow wasn't i relieved to know there are other people having the same troubles and suffering just like i have, and more importantly there is help, support and guidance. in the last month i have had some minor relapses and then a major PMO so im back to square one. Today i went swimming at the local pool with my partner and our 11 mth old daughter. my partner leaves for a while and i find myself staring at these young well developed girls in bikinis....i know its wrong but i can't help myself. Since then all i can think of is this trigger and wanting to MO. I know it will pass but its killing me, my addict brain is just saying "oh go ahead get some relief it will be OK". Its time to go to bed and i hope to have the strength in the morning not to relapse...that's the hardest time for me. i will have the strength to stay clean & it will pass!!!!!