struggling in what I believe is my first flatine..

will keep it short and concise...

Tried Nofap literally a year ago as my porn addiction became so bad that I started seeing escorts, as that was the only way I could get the same rush I used to get from fetish porn I was watching. I became more depressed, my anxiety was crippling to the point that I couldn’t leave the house. I felt lonely and useless, constantly negative. My world would get rocked upside down if a girl rejected me. I would validate myself from female attention. I was plagued by thoughts of my ex, which I didn’t want. Anyway.. I lasted 36 days and then relapsed after I was drunk and gradually fell back into my place of PMO.

Now a year on, I decided enough was enough and I have gone all in this time after I hit a rock bottom. I have done much more research this time and am more focused to change my life around and become the man I want to be.

I keep reading about how this process is life changing and the super powers that people are getting.. however I am 21 days into this and feel low, lethargic, still have anxiety, lack motivation and a I am again plagued by thoughts of my ex..

Has anyone experienced this and gone through the mill? When does it start to change?

Is this my flatline?

Would appreciate the advice and opinions brothers.

Peace,
J