Struggling. May not make it.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Freeman..., Dec 4, 2015.

  1. Freeman...

    Freeman... Fapstronaut

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    i am exactly four weeks hard-reset today and I am wrestling with the idea of jut MO inch even as I write this. A friend of mine suggested that I give myself some relief today and I think I am going to now as it is just too hard. I still haven't had a wet dream. There is some stubborn part of me holding on but I honestly don't know why. My fantasising has become more intense in places. I want to eat out ever hot girl I see anywhere including my wife. It's late where I am and all I need to do is walk to the spare room and do it. I still might but it's just hard to know why I am still holding on. I didn't really have a problem with porn, only obsessing about sex-seeing as there is a lcknof it in my life. Can anyone help and tell em why I should stay stopped. I guess the idea of trying to get back this much time puts me off a relapse but then I don't really notice very many benefits to no fapping so far I'd I'm honest other than being slightly more in control.
     
  2. taqwa

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    Depends on your definition of hard mode... I see nothing wrong with directing your sexual energy towards your wife. We are blessed to have wives while many on this forum do not. Intimacy with your wife in a loving way in the absence of porn is one of God's greatest gifts. PMO has robbed us of this incredible blessing! Stay strong! Win!
     
  3. msmahamed

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    If you've made a conscious choice weather or not to do it, you're winning. Fear is the killer of the mind, and if you succumb all you do is validate your mindset of being unsuccessful at this.



    Win, for you.
     
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  4. Freeman...

    Freeman... Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for replying bro. As it happens I was only just reading your journal and suggested activities and some of the urge has subsided. The problem with my wife if that she has some stuff going on that does make sex or any real physical intimacy possible, which kind of frustrates me a lot. But in a sense nofap helps because I don't really hassle her to sex as much since I got on here. Does it get easier? I really hope so!
     
  5. msmahamed

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    It does, and thank you for viewing my blog. If willpower's what you need, read The Master Key System by Charles L. Haanel and Willpower by Denis O'hare. These books help me develop my willpower.

    Again, thank for looking at my blog :)
     
  6. taqwa

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    You are most welcome brother. I am humbled to have played a small part in your recovery. My heart goes out to you! You are in a very difficult situation. To be married and not have an outlet is extremely challenging. Yes, it does get easier. However, it is a lifelong battle. I wish you much success. I pray that your wife's "stuff" gets better and you can ease back into an intimate relationship with her. You only have one life. Intimacy with a partner you love is truly a treasure! Stay strong! Win!
     
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  7. Freeman...

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    So. Somehow. I'm not sure how. But I am still clean. I need to stay humble though because my thoughts can take over in a second. I don't know how I got through that night. I really don't.

    Thanks guys!
     
  8. taqwa

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    Congrats brother! I am proud of you. One victory at a time. It is so worth it! Stay strong! Win!
     
  9. Boomer49

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    What a great victory for you Freeman. You must acknowledge the accomplishment. You'll know how better to handle it the next time it shows itself. Keep busy, they are just thoughts over which we have total control.

    *B49*
     

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