Stuck in a rut and my experience so far

Hello all, I have been learning about semen retention since august Iv had a couple of short “streaks” the longest being 7 days on that streak my energy levels certainly increased and I felt better about myself, apart from that I can’t seem to get past 2 days, I got upto 4 days last week and I know it’s probably just coincidence but a lot of weird stuff was happening on that streak, I found a white feather, there was a lot of synchronicities with numbers, 11:11 at a bus timetable , 22:22 when I checked my phone 13:13 another time, I also checked my bank account and a significant amount of money had appeared, that I thought I had already recieved previously but it was much more than I was expecting this was only within 4 days of retaining, I work out a lot 5/6 days a week but it seems to be my rest days when I’m more likely to relapse, I’m also learning to drive and have my own small business so I do have things going for me but in this state of not retaining I feel a huge void which Iv been trying to fill with other people for years now, I was talking to a girl during lockdown for 4 months and she suddenly just ghosted me in august I still feel pretty hurt about that as I really liked her and whenever I think of her I feel pain and end up relapsing I never do it to porn anymore I can go without that easy, Iv been looking for ways to transmute the build up of energy with working out as I mentioned, meditation, learning to drive, business is slow due to the ongoing pandemic but still working on new things and I’m starting to become interested in new things, any suggestions as to what else I can do would be greatly appreciated I want to succeed at this as I know even from my short streaks it works but the build up and my mind forces me to release. Cheers