Stuck in day 0

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by scavpacker, May 16, 2019.

  1. scavpacker

    scavpacker Fapstronaut

    Hey, i started on 28th of April and been off PMO for couple of weeks, then relapsed few days ago and afterwards got this devil voice whispering to me: "You have just relapsed, it won't change much to do it again". So the very same day I done it again several times. Come the following day, I am at home alone, and thinking "oh its just one day, who cares if I enjoy myself".

    So here I am, 30 minutes in, and I am afraid that in the meantime I may slip. Looking for inspiration..:/

    TLDR After breaking my two week streak I find it impossible to make it more than one day, constantly relapsing. Do you have any suggestion how to break it through?
  2. OnTheEdge

    OnTheEdge Fapstronaut

    I did a 30 day streak which I found pretty easy. That was 3 months ago and this is probably the longest streak I've managed since then. I have been through the mind trickery (and still do) that you're currently going through. I think eventually you somehow begin to regain control from that 'devil' in your head that justifies relapse in a million different ways. You see through the lies because you now have the experience of constant relapse and how it doesn't help you one bit. I feel better about life when I'm away from porn and when I relapse I instantly miss the mindset I have when I'm not watching porn. It's like I'm living in a different world. A better world.
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  3. SoberSquirrel

    SoberSquirrel Fapstronaut

    I feel you there, I used to think EXACTLY like that. You watched once and you think that it's okay because well, you relapsed anyways so who gives a *#&@, right? Then you keep watching over and over. It's not easy because of how porn can take control of you. It is a powerful addiction that you developed throughout years and it might take some time. It's like having a wolf that is hungry and is craving for its food!

    When you relapse after a long time, it can be difficult getting out of it. You probably have your location where it happens.. When you have urges, try to leave from that place immediately. You can try taking a walk if it's not too late outside. I used to do that.
    As soon as you think about P, you need to get rid of the thoughts ASAP because then they will stay in your head and the longer you wait, the bigger the urges will become and the harder it will be to get rid of the urges.

    Also, stay positive. A few weeks without PMO is a good achievement. You have to stay strong and keep going forward.
    If you relapse, try not to feel bad about yourself for too long. Yes, it feels bad, but once it's done, you can't do nothing about it except learning from your mistake.
    Think about how it happened, why it happened and think about what you can do to prevent this from happening again.
    If you keep feeling bad about it, you will just end up on it again, thinking that it if you go for another session, you'll feel better. On the contrary, you'll be just falling even deeper.

    I am in a bad position to say that, but stay away from excuses of going back. That is what messed up my long streak of no porn last year. Never let your guards down, no matter how long you've been away from PMO.

    I wish you all the best on your recovery. You can do it, brother.
  4. scavpacker

    scavpacker Fapstronaut

    Yeah, I am glad for this feedback you given me, it really motivates on moving forward. I feel much more confident right now.
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  5. llortaton

    llortaton Fapstronaut

    My Journal
    Close your eyes. Sit down... Imagine you are on a 14 day streak... Focus...
    Now-- tell yourself... "I'am on day 14."
    Then, don't think about Fapping.
    Forget you were ever addicted.
    Whenever the thought of something relating porn or fap comes up, think of something else.

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