'Success!'

I haven't been on the forums much over the past month so hopefully this will rectify my absence.

I've been reminiscing and diving into my belief systems to really find out what i truly desire this past month, since i finished exams. Because i didn't feel like i was going anywhere, i felt stagnant, lost, bewildered.

I've been having cold showers, but not regularly. I've been waking up at 6 but not everyday. I've been having relapses (I'm on PM) but haven't watched porn since joining these forums 3 - 4 months ago.

Then i realized

'hey, i haven't watched P in at least 3 months.'
'hey, i've been going to gym very regularly, when i hadn't been before.'
'hey, I actually willed myself to be having cold showers'
'hey, I've only relapsed 6 - 9 times since joining these forums, as opposed to however many times when i hadn't, with a high streaks of 28 days and 22 days.'

These are successes. Huge Success.

Just because you're not exactly where you want to be right now doesn't mean you're failing.

I'm sure everyone has the same small wins to overcome this absolutely daunting challenge, and we're all on the path toward victory. Do not give up!!