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Suffering from ED since always and I try to fight it

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Huntilt, Feb 2, 2016.

  1. Huntilt

    Huntilt Fapstronaut

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    Hi fellow,

    I am on my 40 days without PMO but unfortunately I fantasied about sex with real girl and i'm not in a full hard mode as I look on purpose girls on facebook, youtube, tinder. I listen a lot of music to give my brain a rest but I don't feel the needs to go on porn site, and to M. since i start this reboot. Sometimes i speak about sex with REAL person and I never look at escort girl or sending dirty message to fictive people..
    I don't know if it's a relapse and if i have to start back my counter :(
    The main concern of this topic is that I'm suffering from ED since always due to P and every time i know i will try to have sex, i'm having a huge anxiety, i try to avoid it and when it happen I lost all my confidence, have ED, my heart is beating stronger, and that make me crazy and upset against me...
    Last weekend I was back home drunk with a friend of me I'm attracted too and we ended by kissing and at her. Even being drunk, I avoid to have sex with her pretexting wrong excuse and despite that even by kissing her I didn"t have any erection while I think i have feeling for her and really like her. I thought after 40 days stopping any PMO i would have a quick feeling down there but it was like my penis was dead.. I'm suppose to see her tomorrow night but don"t know how to act and how to have a positive thought because think about sex and fail will automatically drive to it... I would ask for you any advice for tomorrow to not think about it, to be positive and maybe what can i say to her to not freak her out (she just ended a long relationship and i guess she want someone to reconfort her and being close to her) but i dont want to reveal this addiction to her it's too fucked up :(

    thank you guys...
     
  2. Flatline I suppose...

    It all depends on how you are related to her, donyou want a serious thing? Or does she want one? Or just random sex?

    Cause in the first case tou could actually explain everything to her, if you are intimate enough, and if she already knows that you like her and that you want to be with her for good. Because revealing you reboot could throw you under another loght for her, this is somthing really intimate and personal and if she is a serious girl she will understand, considering that starting a serious relationship with not simple sex night could be the best thing.

    If it is the second case than you could always try and see what happens (don't expect anything) or simply let her go.
     
  3. sandwich77

    sandwich77 Fapstronaut

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    after 40 days - you might be good, except maybe it's really good to truly give it some time to get to know her - however long that time is. I think we put too much pressure on ourselves to perform - maybe from being so used to looking at porn. After 1-2 days - honestly - I don't blame you for not being ready to go so to speak. We're not machines - I think in real life - it's natural too - maybe it's just too soon, no kidding. Like trying to force ourselves to be machines or something we shouldn't be - it's ok. Anyway - that's just my opinion - I understand about ED and wanting to please the other person, be ok, and perform well so they'll be happy and stay or like us. You're not a machine that needs to perform on command - I don't think it's really necessary to tell her you've had a porn problem - if you're not ready yet it's really ok. Hope things work out.
     
  4. orez

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    Hey man. I also have ED problem and know how you feel. My suggestions would be to go ahead with it. Now listen what I am saying. Its important that you prepare yourself for failure, but in our situation through failure we should be able to recover. If she is serious with you, then she will understand and support you and if she is not, she might reject you, but then you will know that you still have to do more work. I know this seems brutal and it can go wrong in many ways, but you need to be strong. I can tell you there is no easy resolution. I lost my GF who I loved last year due to not accepting my ED and its reason, and she spend 2 years to try and help me with my problem. It should have been more then enough time, but I considered post addiction only last week. Now my plan is to face head on. I know I have ED and I have a plan to get read of it. 1st is to get P out of it then (after 30-45 days) get intimate with a girl to test the waters. If nothing, then prolong it for another 30-60 days, if after being P free for at least 3 months I still have ED , then its to go hard mode. I know that P just messed up my mind completely and I am ready for many failures before I can bit this thing. I know it will be painful, for me and for the girls in question, but I don't see any other issue. I went to several doctors, had circumcision, uses 20 MG tablets, but only now I think I know the reason for my ED.
    Good luck man and keep posting, but remember be strong, the more confident you are the more you can succeed.
    Possible triggers below.
    Don't think of getting hard, make out with her, enjoy her smell, taste and such. Try to get as comfortable with her as you can before going for it. If it doesn't work explain to her that you were very nervous cause you like her so much and you didn't want to mess up (which is technically true). It was more painful for me that I was hurting my GF-s feelings, so make sure to put her at ease.
     
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